PaulandNic

oh shit#! .. pm's are goin on the wonk let alone replies! ...

WBG from me, too pished and WILL make a right ole fool of mysefl ...lol

thank you .,..

Pink Floyd - Echoes in the headphones ... one of me favs ...

Thanks.

Clippy

Wicked tune mate Music is a tonic, keep listening.

Don't worry about the pm's, everyone will understand you not answering

Kath x

sonlymewalter

Paul you've gone through so much to get this far. You are a fighter. At the end of the day you are only human and sometimes the mind can be broken too so taking the tabs may help once they kick in. At the end of the day, that's a temporary measure and you need to face up to the root cause which sounds like it's your job?

Can you confide in someone at work to gain support? Maybe HR? Sometimes it helps to talk to someone and seek advice from another persons perspective. It would be better still to address the bullying however I know how hard that is, it seems it's common and very difficult to report as most businesses here are not sure how to handle it themselves, regardless as to their policies.

Apart from the tablets, it might be best for you to start working out what to do re the job. Maybe start planning to look for other work, or consider working for yourself? Either way, you deserve better than working for a bully. Give yourself a break and start looking after your own interests. No one can make you feel inferior without your consent - so don't let a bully take away who or what you are. You may be a target, but don't be a victim cos they'll win

Chin up and good luck Paul. Your time will come mate

busterboy

Hey, being inundated with Lurve is no bad thing!

PaulandNic

I hope so.

Curfrently feeling soooo crap. so much good advicve yet i can't even reply and just wanna go listen to me music!

Nic went off to bed earlier to watch a film as I'm hardly company at the mo ,...

Clippy

Just stay away from any Keane that cripples me when I'm feeling good!

Don't worry about the replies, seriously.

Don't worry about anything, chill, relax, stick your favourite tunes on and get lost in the music for a bit

nickyjohnt

I love Keane, but totally agree with that

Nicky

St.Georges Girl

If I could get Liquorland to deliver I'd get some wine brought round. Bloody stupid aussie companies don't even do a delivery service.

Clippy

Yup, I love them too, can't listen to them though if I'm feeling remotely downhearted.

JenniGee

Hi there Paul - what the f@&* are you doing up at this time of night?

You should be snuggled up in bed with your lovely wife, who absolutely adores you, wrapped up in her arms & knowing that NO MATTER WHAT you are safe & loved.

When you're getting a hard time emotionally at work & feeling that life is against you, it's completely normal to want to get back to the familiar places you know in the UK, because that is where you remember happy times & being safe. There's no need to beat yourself up over that, you're not letting anyone down by feeling this way - it's your brain being an arse

Right - the technical bit - the anti-depressants will help you feel better in a few days, people are right, they can take 2-3 weeks to start working. The other technical bit (which you won't like) I'm afraid the worst thing you can do when you're feeling down is to drink alcohol, so you do need to cut down. It's one of those things where yes, it has a temporary effect that it makes you feel better, but the long term effect is that it has chemicals in it that do depress your mood, & the effects can last for days. It's why you feel better when you have a drink, the temporary high cuts out the low created by the alcohol. Sorry about that chap, but they's the facts. It's nothing to do with interactions with other medication, it's completely about how alcohol works - bugger, I know, but no booze

Enjoy your day tomorrow, I've read back through your posts & God knows you deserve a great day out & probably a lot more, but stick in there Paul, your lucky break will come. I'm not sure of your position with PR, probably no-one does, not even at Immigration, so don't worry about that, you can't control it so why bother?

Change what you can control - your job, your drinking, make the most of every day with your wonderful family who I know are 100% behind you every step of the way & believe that very soon, things will change for you.

Now bugger off to bed & get that cuddle - you need each other right now

Bix

Hey buddy.
It's 29th Feb. A leap year.
This crap day is nearly over and won't be repeated for another 4 years.

You've been an inspiration to many posters on here.
I for one thought you had no ******g chance of succeeding in your endeavours.....just hoped you would.

Yet you have achieved nearly everything you set out to do.

I remember watching the London Marathon and the admiration I had for those who were all but doubled up with pain almost crawling to the finishing line.

You remind me of them so crawl ya basaard.
Your finishing line is close.
Inspire me some more

Clippy

You're a wise old Lion Bix, you say the best things

Hutch

Hi mate. I was on the pills and it took a good three or four weeks before I reached any sort of plateau. In fact, those first two weeks were probably the worst of my life - have never felt so ropey in all my life. So stick with it.

That said. No job's worth that amount of anguish. Haven't been keeping up with your job situation, but there must surely be an alternative to a job that's driving you doolaley?

That's the one I was on - and I sure as hell didn't abstain from alcohol at any point . Citalopram is a synthetic neural reuptaker - as such it's non-addictive and alcohol consumption shouldn't affect it. That said, alcohol is a depressant ...

I'd echo that.

Sleeping Beauty

paul, just wanted to say, a while ago (a good few years ago!!), i was prescribed happy pills (i never wanted to be on them), and i was mortified they were prozac and they made me feel like a hamster was crawling through my inside - not good. after about 6 weeks i went back to docs and they changed them. they made me feel better, and after some months/nearly a year, i gradually came off them. i recognise the signs now, and you know what, st john wort works better for me.

i was so aniti happy pills, but when you need them, you need them. i dont like taking tablets, like you i am a strong person. but i did, and they worked. st johns wort do the trick for me now, and i dont feel so bad about taking them as they are 'natural'.

i think a lot of people on here have already said they have had problems and needed a little help. your time here has been very tough, and we have all read your great inspirational stories about going back to earn some dosh. many many people on this forum have wobbled a wee bit since arriving in australia, including me. you are not on your own. it's hard trying to get another job when you need the money so much (i am in the same boat), but your own health is more important.

take care hun, smile every now and again, and one day you will find your smiles happen more than your frowns.

Fenton Beasley

That's shit mate. Never give up hope though. You NEVER know what will happen tomorrow. If you keep heading in the right direction in your life, then things will eventually come good. I guarantee it.

There are positive steps to be taken and you seeing your doctor about it is a great start. Being on the anti-depressants can only be a good thing right now. Look at Counselling too. CBT Counselling I believe can work wonders. It's not like back in the UK where you get 6 sessions with an NHS counsellor then "off yer pop sunshine, you're cured now". You go as long as you can or need to. Look at these links and try taking some more positive action:

http://www.qca.asn.au/find/
http://education.qld.gov.au/health/p.../ass-info1.pdf


Give yourself some credit Paul. You moved to the other side of the world. Not everyone has an easy time of it. Some struggle for the first few years. Talk to a Counsellor and tell them what you want out of life. Tell them how you want to feel then the two of you can take steps to head in that direction.

Good luck dude!

Ian