Originally Posted by irish_eyes

Hi there, i've been following your thread with great interest - not only about your dilema but your thought process and i'm amazed at how many of us there is out there that are going through the same thing! I'm really dying to hear what happens with you. For me as you may have picked up on another thread, i'm back home after only 7 months in nz. Its complicated cause I did live there when I was alot younger and without kids for 1 year (this I thought, warranted me to leave the 2nd time after only 7 months) (WRONG) For various reasons which there are 2 many to list I came home and totally regret it just days after landing. When i took a closer look at it all - the problem was not the country i'd left = it was me. I was and still am constantly looking for another adventure, a challenge, a better way of life etc.... Its takin its toll for sure and i really enjoy reading how you and others think - its such a hard call to make - i'm sure you'll make the right one! I'm about to move back to new zealand (3rd time lucky) but the one change i've made is i've sorted my mind out and i dont argue with my sub-consious mind anymore! I'm clear on what I need to do but no doubt i have many more mistakes to make - difference now is I'm learning from them! Keep in touch and I truly hope you find an answer to your question.