Thinking of you at this very sad time.
I know it's easy for us to say, be strong. But all you can do is deal with it in the way you know best, and i know everyone thats posted means it from the bottom of their hearts.

rest assured your mums memory will live on for many years to come amongst us strangers who have never even met you or your mum....and im sure she will find comfort in you telling her that.

we are all holding out a hand and helping hold up your heavy heart a little.


sue xxx[/QUOTE]


Sue that is perfectly put!!


Sam your Mum will always be with you, just this Sunday gone we had all Robs family around (we lost both Robs parents in the last 18 months)
we have there photo on top of a unit we were all talking about them reminissing like ya do I looked up at the photo it was face down, there is NO WAY it could have fallen Rob even tried bashing the unit to knock it over yesterday it wouldnt budge it was there way of saying stop moping we are still about and listening .
what your going through is awful I can remember not being able to feel or see normal life again everything was just a big bubble of a nightmare I thought I was going to wake from, you wont see it now but that really annoying thing called time is the only thing that makes it better you never ever forget it just starts to hurt alot less!!

Sorry didnt mean to babble

Take Care Babe
Praying your xmas wish comes true

Kris xxx

I hope you get what you wish for this Christmas x

I dont like this evening. Because docs say the original prognosis of 24 hours to 2 weeks will be up next monday, I feel really sick.

I am off tomorrow as my sisters are with mum and Im at the hospice sat until sunday/monday.

I dont want christmas to come for obvious reasons.

I feel so scared and when im on BE I feel relaxed and then I get the invisible reality smack which tells me things are far from OK.

Not nice. Want to cry (again)

Don't do what i did when my dad died and that's bottle up your crying!!!

Sam if you want to cry, i know it hurts and you dont want to, but it is good for you because it releases the pressure from stress!!! something i still dont do enough of!!!!!

remember we're all crying with you, holding your hand, helping you manage!

Sam xxxxxx

Im just having a 'panicking it cant be happening to my mum' evening. it always happens when i leave the hospice.
Doesnt help that im not there till Sat, as its so far to go and takes about 3 hours.

my sisters are there and mum has loads of visitors. Abdel said i can get a cab (80quid) if I need.

I feel guilty for not going in for a day.

It's scary going through what you are but hold onto to inner strength and you will get through this.

Ginny

i so know that feeling well honey!

if you need to be there, wether it's 'your' turn or not, GO and be there,

trust me!