I was and am in the same state as you and we've been here less than a week and still feel so bad with the odd bit in between that's ok....there are planes back if you really don't like it but how long do you leave it. Furniture is on its way......Happy pills don't really work either, Don;t know what to say to help apart from the fact that I feel the same!

Hi Issie, I think most of us go through the rollercoaster of emotions. Just think about it the other way, if you dont go you'll regret it and wish you had gone. Grab the chance while you have it and live it. Good luck

I've been in your position - some days I still am, I take a look around at what is familiar and what we take for granted - not just friends and family, but everything that I have grown up with, and how the hell will I cope!!!!
But then I take a step back and think about living in Australia and we will cope with the change - with a different lifestyle and culture, how we will adapt and get on (hopefully) and how it will enrichen our boys lives. and I hope that if it doesn't work out we will have the courage to come back and say at least we tried.

I'm sending you some karma, keep your chin up

Issie,
I, like others on here, am going through exactly the same feelings as you are right now.
I go to bed at night thinking "I don't want to go", then wake up in the morning with my positive head on.
But what's really keeping me going is the fact that my husband and 3 teenage kids are all so desperate to go, and I don't really want to disappoint them by saying "Forget it". I know that sometimes I should be thinking of myself too, and I do really want to go aswell, but I'm the one with the huge circle of mates and the close knit family and therefore have much more to lose, but to be honest my family come first, as I'm sure yours do, and their happiness means so much more to me than my feelings. Hubby is in a job he detests and struggles to get the enthusiasm to go in every day. I know he will have to work in Oz but this gives him a good chance to find something else to do.
I've booked my meds today for next month, so that is something else to focus on.
Go for it girl. We can always come back if things don't work out. Nothing is forever. Who knows what the future holds, but as least we can say that we've been there, done that. How many people really get the chance to say the same.
Good Luck to you and for the future.
Julie. x

Thanks Deb.......it's so hard isnt it. I wish someone could look it to the future for me and tell me i am doing the right thing. But i am going..........i hope they will still except me when i am a raving lunatic, alcoholic smoking 60 fags a day ( oops forgot i dont smoke), i hope Hubby doesnt change his mind again too!

Julie ....that is so like me i go to bed not wanting to go and then wake up and think......Yes i do. I am so glad it isnt just me, i hope i can cope with it all at the same time.

Thank you for your reply i have great comfort knowing i am supported on here by so many people......

Me too was starting to think i was going through early menopause :scared: :scared:

same as Juliecabs huraah i must be normal :rolleyes

Just think this time next year we could all be there thinking so glad we did it and not imagining ever feeling like this!!

Kris xx

Not really sure I was ever normal

Kris xx