A really rough few weeks
May 17th 2010 | 11:59 am
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A really rough few weeks
Am going through one of the worst patches for a few weeks now since moving out here.
A while back the wife and I decided we needed a holiday, a proper getaway holiday out of Oz to experience some different culture, which is what we enjoy. After checking prices to even Bali (which would be the cheapest option) we depressingly realised we couldn't afford it for a while. I know people will say 'Australia has so much to offer', but we like going overseas. I know it's a whinge, but when we were back home we used to do France, Italy, Switzerland, Germany etc. It was fun exploring/experiencing these different cultures, and trying to converse out of a translator book! I feel a little trapped here in Perth.
Then a few weeks ago my best friend in the UK emailed me to say his Dad (also a friend) wasn't very well. I didn't hear anything more until last week when an email came through saying my friend's Dad had passed away with pancreatic cancer. A real blow, as nobody saw it coming.
On top of this my elderly Dad has had to go into hospital with urinary problems, he was worried it was prostate cancer, but thankfully 'only' turned out to be an infection. Plus my Mum, who has only a couple of months ago had hip-replacement now looks likely to have the other side replaced. All of which is extremely worrying as she has a weak heart. Plus she needs experimental surgery on an eye problem, which if it doesn't work will result in her slowly losing her sight.
I'm racked with guilt being over here, knowing that they're struggling back home to do stuff like shopping or moving stuff about and I can't help out like I used to.
Even stupid stuff like me wanting to get a motorbike again because I miss riding so much. When I was chatting with my Mum over the weekend I mentioned this and she broke down in tears because of her fears that something may happen to me. This is my own fault because I'm constantly moaning about how poor the drivers are here.
Anyways - sorry for the huge rant. Really needed to get it off my chest to people who may possibly appreciate some of the huge emotional rollercoaster I'm currently on.
A while back the wife and I decided we needed a holiday, a proper getaway holiday out of Oz to experience some different culture, which is what we enjoy. After checking prices to even Bali (which would be the cheapest option) we depressingly realised we couldn't afford it for a while. I know people will say 'Australia has so much to offer', but we like going overseas. I know it's a whinge, but when we were back home we used to do France, Italy, Switzerland, Germany etc. It was fun exploring/experiencing these different cultures, and trying to converse out of a translator book! I feel a little trapped here in Perth.
Then a few weeks ago my best friend in the UK emailed me to say his Dad (also a friend) wasn't very well. I didn't hear anything more until last week when an email came through saying my friend's Dad had passed away with pancreatic cancer. A real blow, as nobody saw it coming.
On top of this my elderly Dad has had to go into hospital with urinary problems, he was worried it was prostate cancer, but thankfully 'only' turned out to be an infection. Plus my Mum, who has only a couple of months ago had hip-replacement now looks likely to have the other side replaced. All of which is extremely worrying as she has a weak heart. Plus she needs experimental surgery on an eye problem, which if it doesn't work will result in her slowly losing her sight.
I'm racked with guilt being over here, knowing that they're struggling back home to do stuff like shopping or moving stuff about and I can't help out like I used to.
Even stupid stuff like me wanting to get a motorbike again because I miss riding so much. When I was chatting with my Mum over the weekend I mentioned this and she broke down in tears because of her fears that something may happen to me. This is my own fault because I'm constantly moaning about how poor the drivers are here.
Anyways - sorry for the huge rant. Really needed to get it off my chest to people who may possibly appreciate some of the huge emotional rollercoaster I'm currently on.
May 17th 2010 | 1:21 pm
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Re: A really rough few weeks
You've certainly had a tough time of it mate. Take a deep breath and don't punish yourself for being here. Having been through some VERY similar experiences over the past few weeks I completely hear and understand you. It's got to be the worst feeling in the world to be so far away when you feel needed on the other side of the world. Hang in there xxx
May 17th 2010 | 10:57 pm
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Re: A really rough few weeks
Oh dear, I am so sorry that you are going through a bad patch. It is a huge rollercoaster isn't it? But life wherever you are is like that!
I think that sometimes when we are forced to think about just how far away from the UK we now are, it can all feel just a little bit daunting too.
Try not to let every little thing get you down & to keep some perspective.
Easier said than done I very well know!
Big hug x
I think that sometimes when we are forced to think about just how far away from the UK we now are, it can all feel just a little bit daunting too.
Try not to let every little thing get you down & to keep some perspective.
Easier said than done I very well know!
Big hug x
May 17th 2010 | 11:03 pm
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Re: A really rough few weeks
That wasn't really a rant ... I'm sure you could do better (that's the reason I don't start ... I think people might give up reading after page 357!!)
It can be very hard sometimes - sorry to hear about your friend
And hope your Mum and Dad are ok. It does feel very far away at times. And if the money's not to hand for a flight home it makes it seem even further (the voice of experience ... oops, I'm starting so I'll finish!)
luv from shears
It can be very hard sometimes - sorry to hear about your friend
And hope your Mum and Dad are ok. It does feel very far away at times. And if the money's not to hand for a flight home it makes it seem even further (the voice of experience ... oops, I'm starting so I'll finish!)luv from shears
May 17th 2010 | 11:05 pm
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Re: A really rough few weeks
Am going through one of the worst patches for a few weeks now since moving out here.
A while back the wife and I decided we needed a holiday, a proper getaway holiday out of Oz to experience some different culture, which is what we enjoy. After checking prices to even Bali (which would be the cheapest option) we depressingly realised we couldn't afford it for a while. I know people will say 'Australia has so much to offer', but we like going overseas. I know it's a whinge, but when we were back home we used to do France, Italy, Switzerland, Germany etc. It was fun exploring/experiencing these different cultures, and trying to converse out of a translator book! I feel a little trapped here in Perth.
Then a few weeks ago my best friend in the UK emailed me to say his Dad (also a friend) wasn't very well. I didn't hear anything more until last week when an email came through saying my friend's Dad had passed away with pancreatic cancer. A real blow, as nobody saw it coming.
On top of this my elderly Dad has had to go into hospital with urinary problems, he was worried it was prostate cancer, but thankfully 'only' turned out to be an infection. Plus my Mum, who has only a couple of months ago had hip-replacement now looks likely to have the other side replaced. All of which is extremely worrying as she has a weak heart. Plus she needs experimental surgery on an eye problem, which if it doesn't work will result in her slowly losing her sight.
I'm racked with guilt being over here, knowing that they're struggling back home to do stuff like shopping or moving stuff about and I can't help out like I used to.
Even stupid stuff like me wanting to get a motorbike again because I miss riding so much. When I was chatting with my Mum over the weekend I mentioned this and she broke down in tears because of her fears that something may happen to me. This is my own fault because I'm constantly moaning about how poor the drivers are here.
Anyways - sorry for the huge rant. Really needed to get it off my chest to people who may possibly appreciate some of the huge emotional rollercoaster I'm currently on.
A while back the wife and I decided we needed a holiday, a proper getaway holiday out of Oz to experience some different culture, which is what we enjoy. After checking prices to even Bali (which would be the cheapest option) we depressingly realised we couldn't afford it for a while. I know people will say 'Australia has so much to offer', but we like going overseas. I know it's a whinge, but when we were back home we used to do France, Italy, Switzerland, Germany etc. It was fun exploring/experiencing these different cultures, and trying to converse out of a translator book! I feel a little trapped here in Perth.
Then a few weeks ago my best friend in the UK emailed me to say his Dad (also a friend) wasn't very well. I didn't hear anything more until last week when an email came through saying my friend's Dad had passed away with pancreatic cancer. A real blow, as nobody saw it coming.
On top of this my elderly Dad has had to go into hospital with urinary problems, he was worried it was prostate cancer, but thankfully 'only' turned out to be an infection. Plus my Mum, who has only a couple of months ago had hip-replacement now looks likely to have the other side replaced. All of which is extremely worrying as she has a weak heart. Plus she needs experimental surgery on an eye problem, which if it doesn't work will result in her slowly losing her sight.
I'm racked with guilt being over here, knowing that they're struggling back home to do stuff like shopping or moving stuff about and I can't help out like I used to.
Even stupid stuff like me wanting to get a motorbike again because I miss riding so much. When I was chatting with my Mum over the weekend I mentioned this and she broke down in tears because of her fears that something may happen to me. This is my own fault because I'm constantly moaning about how poor the drivers are here.
Anyways - sorry for the huge rant. Really needed to get it off my chest to people who may possibly appreciate some of the huge emotional rollercoaster I'm currently on.
