Anyone who knows me, will know i have every doubt imaginable about emigrating. I read some threads about people who got their visa and they cant wait.

Cant say i have ever felt like that , i sort of saw it as passing an exam, finally got the bloomin thing, but cant use the 'not having a visa' as an excuse anymore.

Just wondered if anyone else goes through this

I am embarassed by this thread, coz we are defo going, but the doubts are

still there

On the other hand , and this is how it usually goes, i argue with myself, the thought of sitting here on me backside for another 10 years watching east enders makes me want to jump in the nearest river, I WANT CHANGE

Welcome to my world!

Rubbish innit, wondering night after night if your doing the right thing, not for yourself, but your family

Beyond rubbish....I sit on this forum trading inane witisims (at least I think they are) with anyone who will entertain me. Inside I am plagued with doubts.

The closer it gets the more I feel this - isn't it called fear?

Part of me can't wait to go and then the fear sets in but if I try and imagine turning around after all this and not going - well how depressing is that?

Lou
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just added a bit above, i argue with myself about it all the time, funny thing is OH has never had any doubts about it at all...............must be a women thing.
If i had lots of close family and close friends round about me, i would never contemplate it, but just the way things have worked out in my life -I don't , but because of this does this give me the right to take my kids away from all that is familiar too them

God , I need more wine

Yep, thats EXACTLY how i feel

I always remember posting something like this before, and someone replied saying 'hold on a minute and i'll go and buy some slipper for your cold feet', lol, but honesly i dont have cold feet for myself, just my family

I have just got the perfect analogy....It feels to me like getting up to the top diving board and your friends are egging you on and you want to go but you are looking at the drop and the distance to the water and you know that it would be easier to lose face and backstep back down to the ground but somehow you want to still throw yourself off and prove sometihng to yourself!

I dont have doubts so much as fears.

Finances, being able to get a job as finances dont last forever, racism, the usual stuff.

But Im sort of letting it all go a bit as there is no sign of the visa.

I expect my fears will surface their ugly heads when the visa comes.

And the main worry is I didnt realise how much my family meant to me until recently.

But we have to at least try.

This is a very common feeling, which lots on here have discussed. We are hoping to go in the next few months and have obviously been thinking of an implications on our families, BUT, you really shouldn't live your life just to please your siblings or parents. I have an aged father who is in poor health who will be happy for us to have a new life in Aus, but I have a sister who will be totally against it and will hate me for it - not that it will have any impact on her as she lives 250 miles away. That's just how some people are about it.

If you think you will have a better life in Aus, go for it ! And don't worry about negative reactions from family. After all, why would they be negative ? Jealousy, perhaps ?

We're only here for a short time and we only get the one crack at life so do what's best for you. We are.

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I know this is mega silly , but the thought of losing face at work and not going fills me with dread, if for some reason we didn't go , i would definatly change jobs to a bunch of people who have never known anything about it even if it was a job for the worse

Have another wine hun...

kids are soooo adaptable (I know this having moved around loads myself when I was young - the only difficult move was when I was 17, but I coped).

It will be fine, you obviously have the urge to do it so make sure you have a good go at it. We've said nothing will make us turn back until we're past 3 years there. Keep thinking of why you wanted this and also (what helps me right now) is to focus on the things I don't like here (overcrowding, shit national curriculum etc etc)

Lou
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PP best of luck, know what you mean about family, i dont have loads and as you know my cousin died suddenly and in some bizarre event it made me closer to their family, but as am in a different town etc, i still feel a little like an outsider

quite normal feelings which don't stop the minute you touch down on australian soil. continue for a little while after and for some never go away. life is too short you have to go for it. Better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all.

You have the fears too Sam?

It's amazing how we feel everyone else is so gung ho.

I think when Margaret said about people getting their visa and saying they can't wait is just the relief at the end of the process (and that part of them that can't wait too )

Lou
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