Thanks Loose. I can always rely on you for words of wisdom and support.

I guess this crappy period of gloom had to come sometime. I'll be okay when I'm back in Jersey looking after people again.

I swear I'm jinxed with planning! When I was 18 I swore never to plan anything ever, because plans always change and Ireckon you miss out on amazing opportunities if you have set plans. So, as a rule, I plan the bare minimum and see what happens in between - that's how I ended up living on an outback sheep station for a year with Mr Bundy! But emigrating does require the odd bit of forethought, and we had made plans. So it's just blinkin' typical that all those plans have fallen apart.

They haven't fallen apart mate, they're jusy gonna have to change a bit. But you got so far once so when you come round to doing it again it'll be twice as easy!

I'm not a planner either - I'm crap, and Mrs Loose is sooo organised. Mates take the p*ss out of me cos she manages to nag me (which I need) from thousands of soddin miles away. ;)

I know its easier said than done, but try keep your chin up, sounds like you're away from everyone a bit now, so you're not as busy, and things are maybe sinkin in a little. You're gonna be a bit down emotionally so things seem a lot worse. Keep telling yourself things are gonna get better. There'll still be tough times, but it will get better.

10 years time, you and Mr Bundy are gonna have your own country place, with hordes of little bundsters tear arsin' around in the aussie sun! ;)

Hi Bundy

I've never posted on one of your threads before - felt like I would be intruding. You've had me in tears - both happy and sad. I read today’s post and really feel for you – I do know how you feel, as I know a lot on here do who have nursed a parent with cancer. Staying focussed and looking after them is the easy(ier!) bit. You have got home and “relaxed⠀? and its inevitable that you were going to go through a down period – you have to allow yourself this downtime – its all part of the process. You are a very strong person and will always be - that wont change. Try not to be so hard on yourself - easier said than done, I know.
Good luck Bundy and thinking of you all.
Ginni
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Thanks Ginni,

I don't feel very strong at the moment. I'd really like to hibernate until all this is over. But I think you're right, it is part of the process. Even when things were at their worst with my mum, I never really stopped being positive. And now that things are better than expected, I've lost that positivity. I suppose that could be because there is a future now, a knowledge that this will be going on for years and that nothing will be the same again. Somehow that seems harder than the thought of my mum dying straightaway, which is bizarre.

And never fear of intruding! All those posts kept me going through the deep, dark days before my mum's full diagnosis. It's good to know there are people out there