Emotional Rollarcoaster
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Emotional Rollarcoaster
Sorry guys but Stef is at it again...this could be a deep one
Before I start I would like to add that this post is in no way a 'dig' at New Zealand and please please please do not let this scare anyone from coming. New Zealand has offered us everything we wanted it to and I do love the place...I just need to talk!
I am quite possible the most pathetic person in the world at the moment! I am sat here with the laptop listening to Take That (don't take the p*** OK I LOVE Take That which is just maiking me worse) wrapped up in about 5 jumpers (It's cold on the South Island!!!) drinking Speights and crying! What is worse is that it is my last Speights.
I feel as though I am on an emotional rollarcoaster at the moment. I have been crying all week on and off and I can't stop myself. I am like a woman constantly with PMS. I could almost laugh at myself to be honest but it's not good. Two things have alarmed me...
In a bout of frustration this week I have screamed that I want to go home (which I have never never ever even thought nevermind spoke out loud) and tonight I have filled in a survey on this forum asking if people are staying/going/undecided and I put undecided! I have scared myself to death. Not only have I just bought a puppy, I have bought a house which I move into on Monday!
Has anyone else felt like this? I am scared I am never going to come back from this. Now I have had these thoughts and feelings once will they go away?
I should have known I would find this harder than I would admit, I mean I used to suffer from severe depression (which I DID NOT admit to immigration so shhhhhhhh guys) and here I am emigrating thinking it would be so easy.
Like I have said above, I LOVE New Zealand and don't want to go back to England. I love my new house and can't wait to collect my puppy when he is old enough to leave his mother. I know alot of people here in Timaru and have started to make friends but I feel so lonely.
When I e-mail my friends in the UK they are like 'But you have a house with a sea view, a lovely 4 wheel drive and a new puppy...and you live in New Zealand, don't be an ungrateful cow. It is hard to get the point accross that money doesn't mean happiness (not that I have much money, I am earning half of what I earnt in the UK).:curse:
I don't know what else to say...just needed to feel less lonely. Paul doesn't know how I feel, he has enough on his plate and I have to be his rock. He has left more in the UK than I have and I have to be there for him.
Oh good now I have run out of Speights!!!! Anyone getting a round in?!
Sorry for the depressing post guys I am sure I will feel stupid for this tomorrow.
Before I start I would like to add that this post is in no way a 'dig' at New Zealand and please please please do not let this scare anyone from coming. New Zealand has offered us everything we wanted it to and I do love the place...I just need to talk!
I am quite possible the most pathetic person in the world at the moment! I am sat here with the laptop listening to Take That (don't take the p*** OK I LOVE Take That which is just maiking me worse) wrapped up in about 5 jumpers (It's cold on the South Island!!!) drinking Speights and crying! What is worse is that it is my last Speights.
I feel as though I am on an emotional rollarcoaster at the moment. I have been crying all week on and off and I can't stop myself. I am like a woman constantly with PMS. I could almost laugh at myself to be honest but it's not good. Two things have alarmed me...
In a bout of frustration this week I have screamed that I want to go home (which I have never never ever even thought nevermind spoke out loud) and tonight I have filled in a survey on this forum asking if people are staying/going/undecided and I put undecided! I have scared myself to death. Not only have I just bought a puppy, I have bought a house which I move into on Monday!
Has anyone else felt like this? I am scared I am never going to come back from this. Now I have had these thoughts and feelings once will they go away?
I should have known I would find this harder than I would admit, I mean I used to suffer from severe depression (which I DID NOT admit to immigration so shhhhhhhh guys) and here I am emigrating thinking it would be so easy.
Like I have said above, I LOVE New Zealand and don't want to go back to England. I love my new house and can't wait to collect my puppy when he is old enough to leave his mother. I know alot of people here in Timaru and have started to make friends but I feel so lonely.
When I e-mail my friends in the UK they are like 'But you have a house with a sea view, a lovely 4 wheel drive and a new puppy...and you live in New Zealand, don't be an ungrateful cow. It is hard to get the point accross that money doesn't mean happiness (not that I have much money, I am earning half of what I earnt in the UK).:curse:
I don't know what else to say...just needed to feel less lonely. Paul doesn't know how I feel, he has enough on his plate and I have to be his rock. He has left more in the UK than I have and I have to be there for him.
Oh good now I have run out of Speights!!!! Anyone getting a round in?!
Sorry for the depressing post guys I am sure I will feel stupid for this tomorrow.
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Re: Emotional Rollarcoaster
Stef!!!
Hi ya darling!!! It's all normal... just part of the process... take a moment and reflect on what you have done over the past year and where you are now... a year ago you couldn't wait to get here, you've had all the up heaval of selling up, saying good bye, packing, the flight, the immigration process, the job searches, the interviews, the acclimtisation to your new life, finding somewhere to live... the list goes on and on and on... now most of thiese things are behind you ticked of the list of things to do to get settled... Your mind is probably de-stressing and trying to take it all in, the enormity of what you and Paul have achieved to get where you are.... and when you think about it, it's frightening, but you've achieved it and your mind is probably thinking what next... i've done it all... We've been there as well... my advice is to try and relax, enjoy your new puppy as we have with ours and enjoy...
Hi ya darling!!! It's all normal... just part of the process... take a moment and reflect on what you have done over the past year and where you are now... a year ago you couldn't wait to get here, you've had all the up heaval of selling up, saying good bye, packing, the flight, the immigration process, the job searches, the interviews, the acclimtisation to your new life, finding somewhere to live... the list goes on and on and on... now most of thiese things are behind you ticked of the list of things to do to get settled... Your mind is probably de-stressing and trying to take it all in, the enormity of what you and Paul have achieved to get where you are.... and when you think about it, it's frightening, but you've achieved it and your mind is probably thinking what next... i've done it all... We've been there as well... my advice is to try and relax, enjoy your new puppy as we have with ours and enjoy...
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Here's something to do.... http://britishexpats.com/forum/showthread.php?t=538007 check this post out... they need advice on Timaru!!!
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Hang in there! My heart ached for you reading your post, as I can empathise entirely with the way you are feeling at the moment. Although back in the UK now, we moved to NZ ten years ago and stayed for three odd years. Loved the country, thoroughly enjoyed the lifestyle and experience of living there, made lots of new friends (many of whom we remain in contact with), and felt privileged to have the chance of a new life.
For the most part, I actually surprised myself to not feel as homesick as I had anticipated. I missed my family and UK friends of course, but with the cheap phone deals and email contact, I never really felt too isolated. Also with two young children (one then a babe in arms), I also got to quickly meet other young mums/couples through primary school and this helped us settle in.
But of course, there were days when the enormity of the move, to the other side of the world, overwhelmed me and I felt very emotional. I'd stand on the deck of our very beautiful NZ home enjoying views we could only imagine being available from our windows in UK, listening to the tropical sound of cicadas in the trees, glorious sunshine, looking at the variety of citrus trees bearing fruit in a raised section of our garden and thinking how absolutely lucky we were. Then in almost the same breath, I'd find myself closing my eyes tight shut and wishing so hard that the next car to come into our cul-de-sac would be my Mum and Dad dropping round for an unexpected cup of tea as they used to. Mixed emotions at both ends of the spectrum.
Some days I'd feel guilty for having made the move and question my motives. I'd find myself wondering whether I'd actually traded my loving family and wide circle of friends in the UK so as to have a bigger house in a pretty environment. Had I put lifestyle and material wealth before family?
Like you, once we had committed to a house/mortgage in NZ, I did feel an element of panic - our 'adventure' had now officially been made seemingly permanent, which was very scary. But similar feelings had passed over me when my first baby was a few weeks old...much wanted, enormously loved, long awaited...but still I felt a cold sweat that my life would never be the same again and this responsibility would be with me forever. In both cases, happily(!) the surge of panic passed quickly and I never regretted either experience.
Try to relax a bit. Regular phone calls 'home' would generally make me feel better when I was having a tough time, and reassure me that we were indeed only a phone call away from loved ones.
Another way I coped when I felt down was to remind myself that nothing needs to be set in stone...you are free to come and go, and if you do decide in the future that NZ is not for you, then you can always go back to UK (or elsewhere). Sure, it may cost you a great deal financially (it certainly cost us a packet - we left UK as property boom started, bought in NZ at peak, and left to return to UK when NZ market had dipped and UK market was still soaring...currency exchange was poor and we virtually had to start again...but seven years later we're in a pretty good position and have no regrets about our emigration experience). Things have a way of working themselves out.
Be strong for your hubby by all means, but be kind to yourself too. You're allowed 'down days' and it's only natural to feel bewildered from time to time. Talking things through will help relieve your stress a little, and isn't a sign of defeat. Then have a glass of wine and watch the sun set together, tomorrow is a new day!
Best of luck!
For the most part, I actually surprised myself to not feel as homesick as I had anticipated. I missed my family and UK friends of course, but with the cheap phone deals and email contact, I never really felt too isolated. Also with two young children (one then a babe in arms), I also got to quickly meet other young mums/couples through primary school and this helped us settle in.
But of course, there were days when the enormity of the move, to the other side of the world, overwhelmed me and I felt very emotional. I'd stand on the deck of our very beautiful NZ home enjoying views we could only imagine being available from our windows in UK, listening to the tropical sound of cicadas in the trees, glorious sunshine, looking at the variety of citrus trees bearing fruit in a raised section of our garden and thinking how absolutely lucky we were. Then in almost the same breath, I'd find myself closing my eyes tight shut and wishing so hard that the next car to come into our cul-de-sac would be my Mum and Dad dropping round for an unexpected cup of tea as they used to. Mixed emotions at both ends of the spectrum.
Some days I'd feel guilty for having made the move and question my motives. I'd find myself wondering whether I'd actually traded my loving family and wide circle of friends in the UK so as to have a bigger house in a pretty environment. Had I put lifestyle and material wealth before family?
Like you, once we had committed to a house/mortgage in NZ, I did feel an element of panic - our 'adventure' had now officially been made seemingly permanent, which was very scary. But similar feelings had passed over me when my first baby was a few weeks old...much wanted, enormously loved, long awaited...but still I felt a cold sweat that my life would never be the same again and this responsibility would be with me forever. In both cases, happily(!) the surge of panic passed quickly and I never regretted either experience.
Try to relax a bit. Regular phone calls 'home' would generally make me feel better when I was having a tough time, and reassure me that we were indeed only a phone call away from loved ones.
Another way I coped when I felt down was to remind myself that nothing needs to be set in stone...you are free to come and go, and if you do decide in the future that NZ is not for you, then you can always go back to UK (or elsewhere). Sure, it may cost you a great deal financially (it certainly cost us a packet - we left UK as property boom started, bought in NZ at peak, and left to return to UK when NZ market had dipped and UK market was still soaring...currency exchange was poor and we virtually had to start again...but seven years later we're in a pretty good position and have no regrets about our emigration experience). Things have a way of working themselves out.
Be strong for your hubby by all means, but be kind to yourself too. You're allowed 'down days' and it's only natural to feel bewildered from time to time. Talking things through will help relieve your stress a little, and isn't a sign of defeat. Then have a glass of wine and watch the sun set together, tomorrow is a new day!
Best of luck!
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Sorry guys but Stef is at it again...this could be a deep one
Before I start I would like to add that this post is in no way a 'dig' at New Zealand and please please please do not let this scare anyone from coming. New Zealand has offered us everything we wanted it to and I do love the place...I just need to talk!
I am quite possible the most pathetic person in the world at the moment! I am sat here with the laptop listening to Take That (don't take the p*** OK I LOVE Take That which is just maiking me worse) wrapped up in about 5 jumpers (It's cold on the South Island!!!) drinking Speights and crying! What is worse is that it is my last Speights.
I feel as though I am on an emotional rollarcoaster at the moment. I have been crying all week on and off and I can't stop myself. I am like a woman constantly with PMS. I could almost laugh at myself to be honest but it's not good. Two things have alarmed me...
In a bout of frustration this week I have screamed that I want to go home (which I have never never ever even thought nevermind spoke out loud) and tonight I have filled in a survey on this forum asking if people are staying/going/undecided and I put undecided! I have scared myself to death. Not only have I just bought a puppy, I have bought a house which I move into on Monday!
Has anyone else felt like this? I am scared I am never going to come back from this. Now I have had these thoughts and feelings once will they go away?
I should have known I would find this harder than I would admit, I mean I used to suffer from severe depression (which I DID NOT admit to immigration so shhhhhhhh guys) and here I am emigrating thinking it would be so easy.
Like I have said above, I LOVE New Zealand and don't want to go back to England. I love my new house and can't wait to collect my puppy when he is old enough to leave his mother. I know alot of people here in Timaru and have started to make friends but I feel so lonely.
When I e-mail my friends in the UK they are like 'But you have a house with a sea view, a lovely 4 wheel drive and a new puppy...and you live in New Zealand, don't be an ungrateful cow. It is hard to get the point accross that money doesn't mean happiness (not that I have much money, I am earning half of what I earnt in the UK).:curse:
I don't know what else to say...just needed to feel less lonely. Paul doesn't know how I feel, he has enough on his plate and I have to be his rock. He has left more in the UK than I have and I have to be there for him.
Oh good now I have run out of Speights!!!! Anyone getting a round in?!
Sorry for the depressing post guys I am sure I will feel stupid for this tomorrow.
Before I start I would like to add that this post is in no way a 'dig' at New Zealand and please please please do not let this scare anyone from coming. New Zealand has offered us everything we wanted it to and I do love the place...I just need to talk!
I am quite possible the most pathetic person in the world at the moment! I am sat here with the laptop listening to Take That (don't take the p*** OK I LOVE Take That which is just maiking me worse) wrapped up in about 5 jumpers (It's cold on the South Island!!!) drinking Speights and crying! What is worse is that it is my last Speights.
I feel as though I am on an emotional rollarcoaster at the moment. I have been crying all week on and off and I can't stop myself. I am like a woman constantly with PMS. I could almost laugh at myself to be honest but it's not good. Two things have alarmed me...
In a bout of frustration this week I have screamed that I want to go home (which I have never never ever even thought nevermind spoke out loud) and tonight I have filled in a survey on this forum asking if people are staying/going/undecided and I put undecided! I have scared myself to death. Not only have I just bought a puppy, I have bought a house which I move into on Monday!
Has anyone else felt like this? I am scared I am never going to come back from this. Now I have had these thoughts and feelings once will they go away?
I should have known I would find this harder than I would admit, I mean I used to suffer from severe depression (which I DID NOT admit to immigration so shhhhhhhh guys) and here I am emigrating thinking it would be so easy.
Like I have said above, I LOVE New Zealand and don't want to go back to England. I love my new house and can't wait to collect my puppy when he is old enough to leave his mother. I know alot of people here in Timaru and have started to make friends but I feel so lonely.
When I e-mail my friends in the UK they are like 'But you have a house with a sea view, a lovely 4 wheel drive and a new puppy...and you live in New Zealand, don't be an ungrateful cow. It is hard to get the point accross that money doesn't mean happiness (not that I have much money, I am earning half of what I earnt in the UK).:curse:
I don't know what else to say...just needed to feel less lonely. Paul doesn't know how I feel, he has enough on his plate and I have to be his rock. He has left more in the UK than I have and I have to be there for him.
Oh good now I have run out of Speights!!!! Anyone getting a round in?!
Sorry for the depressing post guys I am sure I will feel stupid for this tomorrow.
Sometimes I accept its going to take many, many years to come totally right in my little head. I just wish I had a kindred spirit like you closer to palmy. I have a few good new friends but it takes a while to build up a REAL relationship aye? And none of my friends are relocated people..well one is but she is from Chile and we have very different mindsets..plus the lingo barrier makes it a tad tricky to be on the same plain!!!!!!!! I do feel for you.
Hopefully knowing you are not alone will help.
Be lucky and enjoy that pup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Well it is the morning now (very bloody early aswell!) and I am feeling better but not much! I have to pick myself up and go to work and cheer up!!!!!!!
THANK YOU so much for all your help guys, it means so much. I wish you were all down here so I could get you all a drink It is nice to know that people feel the same as me sometimes and it is not just me going mental again I will try and make my next post a bit happier!
THANK YOU so much for all your help guys, it means so much. I wish you were all down here so I could get you all a drink It is nice to know that people feel the same as me sometimes and it is not just me going mental again I will try and make my next post a bit happier!
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Have been there and done that, have been here 3 years and now into our 4th, in Dunedin, i was working at a house fitting a woodfire, when all of a sudden, i did the " flight or fight thing " i was having a serioys bad day, i had just installed a difficult woodfire, when i dropped a piece of stainless steel on to the top of the fire and put a dent in it ****, went outside for smoko and sat in van and thought of UK and family, and bang it hit me, i could have cried, felt lost, overwhelmed, and could have just said bugger it letrs go back, this was at around the 9 month mark, so matey i can sympathise with you as it does creep up on you occasionanly, one thing we do when things get to busy at work etc is get out and do something different, go away for the weekend, see some true NZ, go get the puppy trained, keep yourself busy, but always think how hard it was in all ways for all of us to get here, we have all been given an opportunity in life to do something else, there are hundreds of people back in Uk who would love to be in our shoes, trying to escape the UK, but are still doing the same things as when we all left.
Its also just another small mountain to climb over to get to the highest mountain top, i recon it takes at least 2 years and more to feel really at Home, but for some the pull of family can be to strong.
Nige, Dunedin since May 05
Its also just another small mountain to climb over to get to the highest mountain top, i recon it takes at least 2 years and more to feel really at Home, but for some the pull of family can be to strong.
Nige, Dunedin since May 05
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YAY SPEIGHTS what more can you ask for? Maybe listening to something other than Take That would lift your spirits! How about a bit of Van Halen or Black Sabbath, I always find it lightens my mood!
Anyway, I do feel for you. But I think even happy clappy expats have gone through this at some stage. It is a roller coaster ride, you try so hard to get somewhere, all the stresses and anxieties and then you make it and its like, errr, Ok, what now then? You see its stages like this that determine who stays and who goes. When something goes wrong, or you're not as happy as you think you should be is when some people say, 'Sod it. Too hard, time to leave'. Others work through the inevitable tough times and moments of uncertainty and make it through the other side, happier more balanced and relaxed about their decision. Then of course there's a few of us that ride all the highs and lows and say no, its definitely not for me. But without knowing you, it doesn't sound like that's the situation for you. People back in the UK simply won't understand your predicament and that's OK its a tough one to appreciate. Forums like this are great for exactly this reason. There are no instant ways to bring yourself back up, its a gradual process where you need to appreciate the smaller things around you. Really stop and smell the roses so to speak. You've achieved so many things and of course its not going to be an eternal high - that is not the life of an expat! If can keep a blog or diary I think you'd find it very useful to track your progress and give you something to look back on -something tangible to reflect over. Whatever you do, don't isolate yourself and allow yourself to wallow or else it'll be harder to work through, force yourself to get out there and enjoy your area, your new home, your puppy. All the best to you! Cheers
Anyway, I do feel for you. But I think even happy clappy expats have gone through this at some stage. It is a roller coaster ride, you try so hard to get somewhere, all the stresses and anxieties and then you make it and its like, errr, Ok, what now then? You see its stages like this that determine who stays and who goes. When something goes wrong, or you're not as happy as you think you should be is when some people say, 'Sod it. Too hard, time to leave'. Others work through the inevitable tough times and moments of uncertainty and make it through the other side, happier more balanced and relaxed about their decision. Then of course there's a few of us that ride all the highs and lows and say no, its definitely not for me. But without knowing you, it doesn't sound like that's the situation for you. People back in the UK simply won't understand your predicament and that's OK its a tough one to appreciate. Forums like this are great for exactly this reason. There are no instant ways to bring yourself back up, its a gradual process where you need to appreciate the smaller things around you. Really stop and smell the roses so to speak. You've achieved so many things and of course its not going to be an eternal high - that is not the life of an expat! If can keep a blog or diary I think you'd find it very useful to track your progress and give you something to look back on -something tangible to reflect over. Whatever you do, don't isolate yourself and allow yourself to wallow or else it'll be harder to work through, force yourself to get out there and enjoy your area, your new home, your puppy. All the best to you! Cheers
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Well it is the morning now (very bloody early aswell!) and I am feeling better but not much! I have to pick myself up and go to work and cheer up!!!!!!!
THANK YOU so much for all your help guys, it means so much. I wish you were all down here so I could get you all a drink It is nice to know that people feel the same as me sometimes and it is not just me going mental again I will try and make my next post a bit happier!
THANK YOU so much for all your help guys, it means so much. I wish you were all down here so I could get you all a drink It is nice to know that people feel the same as me sometimes and it is not just me going mental again I will try and make my next post a bit happier!
BUT I have just started yoga...cool man!!!!! Give it a go said the ageing hippy.
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Completely understanding your confusion you poor thing!
My parents have just been here to visit me and OH for 3 months. I love them to bits, they have driven me mad while they have been here, and now they have left, and I cannot stop crying. I adore NZ (apart from driving....see todays post!!) and really dont want to go back to the UK, but today I feel like I am being such a strain on my folks by being so far away from them.
It is so hard, and I do also feel so lucky to be able to live here in NZ.
You are not the only one going through mixed emotions! All of us expats experience it at some time or another!
Go and watch an early Take That vid....so funny, and sure to make you laugh watching them attempt to break dance!
My parents have just been here to visit me and OH for 3 months. I love them to bits, they have driven me mad while they have been here, and now they have left, and I cannot stop crying. I adore NZ (apart from driving....see todays post!!) and really dont want to go back to the UK, but today I feel like I am being such a strain on my folks by being so far away from them.
It is so hard, and I do also feel so lucky to be able to live here in NZ.
You are not the only one going through mixed emotions! All of us expats experience it at some time or another!
Go and watch an early Take That vid....so funny, and sure to make you laugh watching them attempt to break dance!
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[/QUOTE]I feel as though I am on an emotional rollarcoaster at the moment. I have been crying all week on and off and I can't stop myself. I am like a woman constantly with PMS. I could almost laugh at myself to be honest but it's not good. Two things have alarmed me...
In a bout of frustration this week I have screamed that I want to go home (which I have never never ever even thought nevermind spoke out loud) and tonight I have filled in a survey on this forum asking if people are staying/going/undecided and I put undecided! I have scared myself to death. Not only have I just bought a puppy, I have bought a house which I move into on Monday!
Has anyone else felt like this? I am scared I am never going to come back from this. Now I have had these thoughts and feelings once will they go away?
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Hi Stef
I have just read your post as I too moved into our new house last Thursday, still sitting amid a few boxes. Yes i felt like this too - even scarred now we are really committed as we are buying, when you rent it is like well we are not tied here but then all of a sudden it all becomes too much. I had a few weeks back along when I was weepy and wondered if I could stay but now I feel a lot better - apart from the odd panic here and there. My sister lives in Timaru and it is lovely - she has lived there for over 40 years since they emigrated a long time ago so it can't be bad can it. Let me know if I can help in any way - even if you want a chat or we could meet up when I come down to Timaru some time. PM me if you want to. Keep your chin up love. Regards
Shirley.
In a bout of frustration this week I have screamed that I want to go home (which I have never never ever even thought nevermind spoke out loud) and tonight I have filled in a survey on this forum asking if people are staying/going/undecided and I put undecided! I have scared myself to death. Not only have I just bought a puppy, I have bought a house which I move into on Monday!
Has anyone else felt like this? I am scared I am never going to come back from this. Now I have had these thoughts and feelings once will they go away?
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Hi Stef
I have just read your post as I too moved into our new house last Thursday, still sitting amid a few boxes. Yes i felt like this too - even scarred now we are really committed as we are buying, when you rent it is like well we are not tied here but then all of a sudden it all becomes too much. I had a few weeks back along when I was weepy and wondered if I could stay but now I feel a lot better - apart from the odd panic here and there. My sister lives in Timaru and it is lovely - she has lived there for over 40 years since they emigrated a long time ago so it can't be bad can it. Let me know if I can help in any way - even if you want a chat or we could meet up when I come down to Timaru some time. PM me if you want to. Keep your chin up love. Regards
Shirley.
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Hi Stef - hope you're feeling a bit better now. I was like that for my first month here - you made me smile about the PMS bit because that was how I felt too. It passed and although I've had the odd bout of homesickness, when my nephew and then my niece were born mainly, I've been fine otherwise. On the practical side, St John's Wort might not go amiss especially if you suffer from depression anyway. The puppy will help - having to look after it will stop you thinking so much - very bad for you, thinking Try to make sure you get some sun as often as you can - winter is not a good time to be depressed as I'm sure you know. Good luck