What the F**k Am I doing here
Feb 28th 2013, 7:57 pm
#16
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
I feel it more at weekends when I don't have work to occupy my mind. Just that long empty 48 hour void at the end of the week to have to try and fill.
I resent the fact that I have come to quite look forward to Mondays and started to slightly dread the weekend. It used to be the other way around.
I resent the fact that I have come to quite look forward to Mondays and started to slightly dread the weekend. It used to be the other way around.
Feb 28th 2013, 9:19 pm
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
It is a grey miserable, rainy day here on Vancouver Island. I have small ants suddenly making their appearance from inside my kitchen cupboards so started a cleaning frenzy under the sink cupboards. When I had everything taken out, some stuff thrown away, some stuff forgotten I had and packed into my "take home" box, I wished, wished wished that I was cleaning out the cupboards because we have sold and I am leaving! I am already keeping and packing some precious things that I don't use now for when I get to England! How sad is that? I am wishing my life away! 
Feb 28th 2013, 11:36 pm
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
I have started fretting because my only British friend here in town is leaving this year, as soon as she sells her house and business. I love to go into her British shop for a packet of digestives and a natter and good old laugh. I don't know how I will make it through the next few years without her once she is gone. No one else understands what I am going through like she does 
Mar 1st 2013, 2:13 am
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
I have started fretting because my only British friend here in town is leaving this year, as soon as she sells her house and business. I love to go into her British shop for a packet of digestives and a natter and good old laugh. I don't know how I will make it through the next few years without her once she is gone. No one else understands what I am going through like she does
Mar 1st 2013, 5:32 am
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
I have started fretting because my only British friend here in town is leaving this year, as soon as she sells her house and business. I love to go into her British shop for a packet of digestives and a natter and good old laugh. I don't know how I will make it through the next few years without her once she is gone. No one else understands what I am going through like she does
BE really has helped me so much over the past 2 years, as someone who lives and works alone in a remote location it has honestly been my lifeline. We will always be here for you and if its something you don't want to share on a public forum you can always PM me - I'm a good listener
Mar 1st 2013, 5:39 am
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
It is a grey miserable, rainy day here on Vancouver Island. I have small ants suddenly making their appearance from inside my kitchen cupboards so started a cleaning frenzy under the sink cupboards. When I had everything taken out, some stuff thrown away, some stuff forgotten I had and packed into my "take home" box, I wished, wished wished that I was cleaning out the cupboards because we have sold and I am leaving! I am already keeping and packing some precious things that I don't use now for when I get to England! How sad is that? I am wishing my life away!
Its so horrible being trapped by circumstances/other people/etc and I hope naughty Mr Feelbritish keeps to his side of the bargain in 2 years - or else! Big hugs
Mar 1st 2013, 7:16 am
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
I don't know quite what happened, one minute I was tripping along with my life quite nicely then all of a sudden - at the 4 year mark - I was like OMG what the f*** am I doing here?!!!
After a year of planning, saving and wishing I am nearly on my way home. I know its not going to be perfect and I'm sure I'll have those days but all in all I know I'm doing the right thing. Life is precious and too damn short to be this unhappy
Mar 1st 2013, 11:34 am
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
My best friend here (British) told my Mum (they write to each other after I introduced them when my parents came over on holiday!) that she doesn't know what she'll do once I've gone. I feel so guilty about it and I will really miss her too
BE really has helped me so much over the past 2 years, as someone who lives and works alone in a remote location it has honestly been my lifeline. We will always be here for you and if its something you don't want to share on a public forum you can always PM me - I'm a good listener
BE really has helped me so much over the past 2 years, as someone who lives and works alone in a remote location it has honestly been my lifeline. We will always be here for you and if its something you don't want to share on a public forum you can always PM me - I'm a good listener
Due to a confluence of circumstances it may be that it will take as long as 5 years for us to move after all, and that has been weighing heavily on my mind. We are going ahead as if it is still 3 years - fixing up the house, getting rid of stuff - but being realistic in case of the worst case scenario. Knowing Sylvia won't be here is really hard to imagine
I am so glad I found you all on BE, especially you, Miss Betty, as I can always count on you for a good laugh. Thank you for the offer of PM's! I hope you will continue to update us when you are back. And we'll be looking out for that book!
Mar 1st 2013, 11:47 am
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
You know, I think as we start planning our move back we begin to realise we have more friends than we thought, right? Like you were saying on your other thread. I have good friends here - not many, but a few solid friends. But there are things we obviously don't share...like desperate homesickness.
Due to a confluence of circumstances it may be that it will take as long as 5 years for us to move after all, and that has been weighing heavily on my mind. We are going ahead as if it is still 3 years - fixing up the house, getting rid of stuff - but being realistic in case of the worst case scenario. Knowing Sylvia won't be here is really hard to imagine
I am so glad I found you all on BE, especially you, Miss Betty, as I can always count on you for a good laugh. Thank you for the offer of PM's! I hope you will continue to update us when you are back. And we'll be looking out for that book!
Due to a confluence of circumstances it may be that it will take as long as 5 years for us to move after all, and that has been weighing heavily on my mind. We are going ahead as if it is still 3 years - fixing up the house, getting rid of stuff - but being realistic in case of the worst case scenario. Knowing Sylvia won't be here is really hard to imagine
I am so glad I found you all on BE, especially you, Miss Betty, as I can always count on you for a good laugh. Thank you for the offer of PM's! I hope you will continue to update us when you are back. And we'll be looking out for that book!
Hope you do make it back in 3 years rather than 5 
for you!
Mar 4th 2013, 3:27 pm
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
Been asking myself what I am doing here a lot lately. I think I got out of the wrong side of the bed this morning
The only answer I have is - trying to find a job so I can save to go home!
Other than that - no reason whatsoever!
The only answer I have is - trying to find a job so I can save to go home!
Other than that - no reason whatsoever!
Mar 4th 2013, 6:21 pm
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
Every Day at the moment! In a long distance relationship and just want to be back home with her!!!
Mar 6th 2013, 10:15 pm
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
Yes, on and off for 17 years. I feel it worse at Christmas.
Mar 6th 2013, 11:44 pm
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Mar 7th 2013, 9:45 pm
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Re: What the F**k Am I doing here
Comox Valley and have got very bored with it! I should be tidying up my office and going through drawers of rubbish that we have stashed here over the years, but instead I am on BE
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