The phone call we all dread
#31
Auntie Fa
Joined: Nov 2006
Location: Seattle
Posts: 7,344
Re: The phone call we all dread
People all over the world were praying or thinking good thoughts for us. On Friday she went home
#32
Re: The phone call we all dread
I thought I had better give a final update on this, it being Mothers Day in the UK today got me thinking about this thread.
It was diagnosed as terminal cancer in the middle of June, it was actually on my birthday. She told us not to come back etc as she would worry about us not finding work again etc. My wife and I were due to have a second UK wedding (we had already been married in Byron Bay) the first weekend of September, so she knew we were coming back anyway.
So, after packing in two jobs, breaking the lease on a flat and spending a fortune on flights, we finally got sorted to leave at the end of July. We could have maybe gone a fortnight earlier at the earliest, but I didn't want to burn every bridge here work-wise, so I worked out two weeks notice, all the time phoning mum on a regular basis.
At the point we wanted to postpone the wedding, but this wasn't an option as there were 20+ people already booked to fly in from Australia.
We landed on 28th July and the next 6 weeks were easily the worst and most stressful of my life. Planning a wedding is stressful at the best of times, but when your mum is in gods waiting room it is hell on earth.
She had a couple of good weeks, but was hospitalised for a fortnight before getting home a week before our wedding. She had a good week and was even thinking of coming to the wedding right up until the day before where she went downhill, rapidly.
She passed on the night of our wedding, I got the call at 4am from my brother to say he was on his way to get me as she was on her way out, we got to her about 20 seconds too late.
In hindsight, we should have gone back the very second we knew how bad it was and we should have just cancelled the wedding so we could spend time with her instead of sorting out table plans and other pointless crap.
My advice to anyone who ever ends up in this situations: get back as soon as you possibly can.
It was diagnosed as terminal cancer in the middle of June, it was actually on my birthday. She told us not to come back etc as she would worry about us not finding work again etc. My wife and I were due to have a second UK wedding (we had already been married in Byron Bay) the first weekend of September, so she knew we were coming back anyway.
So, after packing in two jobs, breaking the lease on a flat and spending a fortune on flights, we finally got sorted to leave at the end of July. We could have maybe gone a fortnight earlier at the earliest, but I didn't want to burn every bridge here work-wise, so I worked out two weeks notice, all the time phoning mum on a regular basis.
At the point we wanted to postpone the wedding, but this wasn't an option as there were 20+ people already booked to fly in from Australia.
We landed on 28th July and the next 6 weeks were easily the worst and most stressful of my life. Planning a wedding is stressful at the best of times, but when your mum is in gods waiting room it is hell on earth.
She had a couple of good weeks, but was hospitalised for a fortnight before getting home a week before our wedding. She had a good week and was even thinking of coming to the wedding right up until the day before where she went downhill, rapidly.
She passed on the night of our wedding, I got the call at 4am from my brother to say he was on his way to get me as she was on her way out, we got to her about 20 seconds too late.
In hindsight, we should have gone back the very second we knew how bad it was and we should have just cancelled the wedding so we could spend time with her instead of sorting out table plans and other pointless crap.
My advice to anyone who ever ends up in this situations: get back as soon as you possibly can.
#33
Auntie Fa
Joined: Nov 2006
Location: Seattle
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Re: The phone call we all dread
Smudger, it's all too easy to say "shoulda woulda coulda", please don't beat yourself up. My previous post on this thread wasn't the end of the story either. I came back to the UK in July for my BiL's wedding down south; my Mum had been home about 6 weeks by then, but she died in the wee small hours after the wedding, the day before I was due to drive up north.
I'm in the UK right now - pile of memorial headstone brochures by my side. Will be going down to the cemetery later but that's more for my sister's sake than anyone elses, as she seems to get comfort from it. Me, well I know my Mum is always with me (the old bugger, she's still keeping an eye on me and tutting, I bet!) and she knows I love and miss her.
I'm sure yours does too.
I'm in the UK right now - pile of memorial headstone brochures by my side. Will be going down to the cemetery later but that's more for my sister's sake than anyone elses, as she seems to get comfort from it. Me, well I know my Mum is always with me (the old bugger, she's still keeping an eye on me and tutting, I bet!) and she knows I love and miss her.
I'm sure yours does too.
#34
Re: The phone call we all dread
Do not stand at my Grave and weep - Mary Elizabeth Frye
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave bereft
I am not there. I have not left.
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave bereft
I am not there. I have not left.
#35
Auntie Fa
Joined: Nov 2006
Location: Seattle
Posts: 7,344
Re: The phone call we all dread
Lovely. Thank you.
#37
Re: The phone call we all dread
Do not stand at my Grave and weep - Mary Elizabeth Frye
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave bereft
I am not there. I have not left.
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave bereft
I am not there. I have not left.
#38
Re: The phone call we all dread
Smudger, it's all too easy to say "shoulda woulda coulda", please don't beat yourself up. My previous post on this thread wasn't the end of the story either. I came back to the UK in July for my BiL's wedding down south; my Mum had been home about 6 weeks by then, but she died in the wee small hours after the wedding, the day before I was due to drive up north.
I'm in the UK right now - pile of memorial headstone brochures by my side. Will be going down to the cemetery later but that's more for my sister's sake than anyone elses, as she seems to get comfort from it. Me, well I know my Mum is always with me (the old bugger, she's still keeping an eye on me and tutting, I bet!) and she knows I love and miss her.
I'm sure yours does too.
I'm in the UK right now - pile of memorial headstone brochures by my side. Will be going down to the cemetery later but that's more for my sister's sake than anyone elses, as she seems to get comfort from it. Me, well I know my Mum is always with me (the old bugger, she's still keeping an eye on me and tutting, I bet!) and she knows I love and miss her.
I'm sure yours does too.
We just got back to Oz to re-build our lives. Do you have any plans to return here?
#39
Re: The phone call we all dread
Smudger, I'm so sorry. I've been thinking about you and wondering how things were going...don't be too hard on yourself.
We're fairing better...my stepfather's cancer seems to be "stable." The tumors have not grown and although he initially refused treatment, he's looking into surgery. So, things are as good as they can be for the situation. I was there for 5 weeks in Sept-Oct while he was having his tests.
We're fairing better...my stepfather's cancer seems to be "stable." The tumors have not grown and although he initially refused treatment, he's looking into surgery. So, things are as good as they can be for the situation. I was there for 5 weeks in Sept-Oct while he was having his tests.
#40
Auntie Fa
Joined: Nov 2006
Location: Seattle
Posts: 7,344
Re: The phone call we all dread
It's the main downer to this expat life we choose ourselves, folks, but we have to live our own lives and I'm sure our families (or most of them!) understand that.
#41
Re: The phone call we all dread
I so feel for you and your family. I hope everything works out for the best, whatever happens. xx
#42
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Joined: Aug 2010
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Re: The phone call we all dread
It's very sad to hear of people's heart wrenching situations.
As someone who is just about to make the big move over to Aus, it really hits home about family & friends and just how far away we'll actually be.
We have opted to take out the Kinsure Policy - it certainly won't buy us time if the inevitable happens but it would hopefully take away alot of the stress of finding flights etc ourselves at very late notice.
My heart goes out to all of you who have been in such difficult circumstances.
As someone who is just about to make the big move over to Aus, it really hits home about family & friends and just how far away we'll actually be.
We have opted to take out the Kinsure Policy - it certainly won't buy us time if the inevitable happens but it would hopefully take away alot of the stress of finding flights etc ourselves at very late notice.
My heart goes out to all of you who have been in such difficult circumstances.
#43
Re: The phone call we all dread
At the point we wanted to postpone the wedding, but this wasn't an option as there were 20+ people already booked to fly in from Australia.
We landed on 28th July and the next 6 weeks were easily the worst and most stressful of my life. Planning a wedding is stressful at the best of times, but when your mum is in gods waiting room it is hell on earth.
She had a couple of good weeks, but was hospitalised for a fortnight before getting home a week before our wedding. She had a good week and was even thinking of coming to the wedding right up until the day before where she went downhill, rapidly.
She passed on the night of our wedding, I got the call at 4am from my brother to say he was on his way to get me as she was on her way out, we got to her about 20 seconds too late.
In hindsight, we should have gone back the very second we knew how bad it was and we should have just cancelled the wedding so we could spend time with her instead of sorting out table plans and other pointless crap.
My advice to anyone who ever ends up in this situations: get back as soon as you possibly can.
We landed on 28th July and the next 6 weeks were easily the worst and most stressful of my life. Planning a wedding is stressful at the best of times, but when your mum is in gods waiting room it is hell on earth.
She had a couple of good weeks, but was hospitalised for a fortnight before getting home a week before our wedding. She had a good week and was even thinking of coming to the wedding right up until the day before where she went downhill, rapidly.
She passed on the night of our wedding, I got the call at 4am from my brother to say he was on his way to get me as she was on her way out, we got to her about 20 seconds too late.
In hindsight, we should have gone back the very second we knew how bad it was and we should have just cancelled the wedding so we could spend time with her instead of sorting out table plans and other pointless crap.
My advice to anyone who ever ends up in this situations: get back as soon as you possibly can.
Don't beat yourself up about her last few months, you were there and were presumably sharing the run up to the wedding with her. I'm sure that made her very happy.
When my dad died, I was just getting up so wasn't there but I'd been there the night before, we weren't expecting him to die that soon but that's another story. My sister was living overseas. Because it was so sudden she didn't get a chance to get back but she's always considered herself the lucky one that she remembered him as Dad, not as a sick, infirm, elderly man stuck in a hospital bed. The mother forced me to go and say goodbye to his body, I didn't want to, I still have that picture in my head and I wish wish wish I didn't.
Enjoy your life and remember you did what was right at the time.
#44
Spud
Joined: Feb 2011
Location: Avoca Beach
Posts: 565
Re: The phone call we all dread
I was reading this thread last week and was sorry to hear about your sad loss. And then last night our phone rang too, I can't believe this is happening.
My father had some problems last year with his kidneys and has been having dialysis 3 times a week since then. He has been having a few other problems lately and went to see the Consultant last week who sent him for a CT scan. The bad news came from my heart-broken mum last night, dad's got cancer in his bladder, liver, one kidney, urethra and one lung. It's too far advanced and spread too far for treatment to be effective, and they have given him between 6 and 12 months.
My big dilemma is whether we should all go to visit right now ( myself, missus and 8 year old daughter ) or whether I go for 2 or 3 quick visits by myself over the next few months. I have asked mum and dad to think about and and let me know what they would like us to do, but it's a hard one.
It's not just about seeing dad, mum will need some support over the next few months and also after dad has passed. It's not about air fare expenses either, annual leave from work is also limited and I only get 3 days leave for bereavement. It's a decision we will have to make as a family, but a hard one. I'm not sure taking an 8 year old accross the world to spend two weeks in that kind of situation is a good thing. My gut feeling is to go alone, but on the other hand should dad get a last chance to see his grand daughter ?
I love living here in Australia, but this is the first time in 17 years I have wished I could be back in the England. The next few months are going to be hard.
My father had some problems last year with his kidneys and has been having dialysis 3 times a week since then. He has been having a few other problems lately and went to see the Consultant last week who sent him for a CT scan. The bad news came from my heart-broken mum last night, dad's got cancer in his bladder, liver, one kidney, urethra and one lung. It's too far advanced and spread too far for treatment to be effective, and they have given him between 6 and 12 months.
My big dilemma is whether we should all go to visit right now ( myself, missus and 8 year old daughter ) or whether I go for 2 or 3 quick visits by myself over the next few months. I have asked mum and dad to think about and and let me know what they would like us to do, but it's a hard one.
It's not just about seeing dad, mum will need some support over the next few months and also after dad has passed. It's not about air fare expenses either, annual leave from work is also limited and I only get 3 days leave for bereavement. It's a decision we will have to make as a family, but a hard one. I'm not sure taking an 8 year old accross the world to spend two weeks in that kind of situation is a good thing. My gut feeling is to go alone, but on the other hand should dad get a last chance to see his grand daughter ?
I love living here in Australia, but this is the first time in 17 years I have wished I could be back in the England. The next few months are going to be hard.
#45
Re: The phone call we all dread
I was reading this thread last week and was sorry to hear about your sad loss. And then last night our phone rang too, I can't believe this is happening.
My father had some problems last year with his kidneys and has been having dialysis 3 times a week since then. He has been having a few other problems lately and went to see the Consultant last week who sent him for a CT scan. The bad news came from my heart-broken mum last night, dad's got cancer in his bladder, liver, one kidney, urethra and one lung. It's too far advanced and spread too far for treatment to be effective, and they have given him between 6 and 12 months.
My big dilemma is whether we should all go to visit right now ( myself, missus and 8 year old daughter ) or whether I go for 2 or 3 quick visits by myself over the next few months. I have asked mum and dad to think about and and let me know what they would like us to do, but it's a hard one.
It's not just about seeing dad, mum will need some support over the next few months and also after dad has passed. It's not about air fare expenses either, annual leave from work is also limited and I only get 3 days leave for bereavement. It's a decision we will have to make as a family, but a hard one. I'm not sure taking an 8 year old accross the world to spend two weeks in that kind of situation is a good thing. My gut feeling is to go alone, but on the other hand should dad get a last chance to see his grand daughter ?
I love living here in Australia, but this is the first time in 17 years I have wished I could be back in the England. The next few months are going to be hard.
My father had some problems last year with his kidneys and has been having dialysis 3 times a week since then. He has been having a few other problems lately and went to see the Consultant last week who sent him for a CT scan. The bad news came from my heart-broken mum last night, dad's got cancer in his bladder, liver, one kidney, urethra and one lung. It's too far advanced and spread too far for treatment to be effective, and they have given him between 6 and 12 months.
My big dilemma is whether we should all go to visit right now ( myself, missus and 8 year old daughter ) or whether I go for 2 or 3 quick visits by myself over the next few months. I have asked mum and dad to think about and and let me know what they would like us to do, but it's a hard one.
It's not just about seeing dad, mum will need some support over the next few months and also after dad has passed. It's not about air fare expenses either, annual leave from work is also limited and I only get 3 days leave for bereavement. It's a decision we will have to make as a family, but a hard one. I'm not sure taking an 8 year old accross the world to spend two weeks in that kind of situation is a good thing. My gut feeling is to go alone, but on the other hand should dad get a last chance to see his grand daughter ?
I love living here in Australia, but this is the first time in 17 years I have wished I could be back in the England. The next few months are going to be hard.