Scared, Angry and Confused....
Feb 14th 2010, 5:37 pm
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Best of luck on the 18th Songbird 
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Feb 14th 2010, 7:26 pm
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Thinking of you and sending very positive thoughts to you at this time. Take Care......
Feb 15th 2010, 2:31 am
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Songbird.... I'm also a breast cancer survivor..... just approaching 13 years. I also had chemo for 8 months, radiotherapy, and 5 years Tamoxifen, so I can relate to you a little bit.
I was also treated in the UK (dreaded socialised medicine.... I LOVE the NHS!!)
I get a free yearly mammogram here in Georgia. I also have no health insurance.... I dread my yearly mammo's,as I also have the dilemma of "what would I do if it showed up positive?"
Georgia only gives Medicaid to citizens that were BORN in the US.... so I'd be sunk.
My thoughts and prayers are with you..... keep us updated!
I was also treated in the UK (dreaded socialised medicine.... I LOVE the NHS!!)
I get a free yearly mammogram here in Georgia. I also have no health insurance.... I dread my yearly mammo's,as I also have the dilemma of "what would I do if it showed up positive?"
Georgia only gives Medicaid to citizens that were BORN in the US.... so I'd be sunk.
My thoughts and prayers are with you..... keep us updated!
Feb 15th 2010, 5:31 am
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
My cousin Norma was originally diagnosed with breast cancer over 25 years ago, then she was diagnosed with bone cancer about 15 years ago and lymphoma about 10 years ago. She celebrated her 91st birthday last year , she still drives and danced at her surprise 90th birthday party!She is also sharp as a tack! She is unbelievable! My mom is a three year survivor of lung cancer, My cousin Andy is a 5 year survivor of pancreatic cancer. I had cervical and skin. All of my mom's 10 first cousins and herself have had cancer and so far everyone has beat it or is in remission. Stay positive!!!
Feb 16th 2010, 12:03 am
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Thank you all for the wonderful support you have given me (and hubby). You really are such wonderful people and {hugs} to you all. Just knowing that there are so many people here in my 'corner' has helped make this easier. BE is very much my 'online' family - and just like any family (well mine anyways!) we don't always agree, we have our little tiffs and windups (that's part of the fun) but bottom line when help is needed it's there. What I have experienced here since my first post has completely blown me away. I can't thank you enough for being there for us.
When I decided to write that post I was totally at rock bottom - I had kept all of that worry inside my head since mid January and was about to implode. Even if I had anyone to really offload to - I was scared to because that would have made it all more real. As it was there was non-one here IRL (other than hubby) who I could really talk to, let alone ask for advice. Problem is though that when you are trying to deal with something like this, you also want to protect and shield those closest to you. So you put on a brave face - while all the time you are struggling to keep the negative 'what if's' away from you. I managed to do that for a while - but it was draining me and I was just becoming more and more confused and pessimistic.
I was angry at myself for not being stronger, for not being able to get my shit together. Being snowbound here for weeks at a time certainly hasn't helped ( winter wonderland my arse!) Then having the biopsy re-scheduled due to the snow and ice was another major set back. I had geared myself up to face this only to have it delayed on the morning it was due to be done. Trying to stay 'positive' was fast becoming a losing battle - hence my post. I needed to offload and I'm so glad I did because the support you have all shown me has been such a great help
Thank you all
keep your fingers crossed for me on the 18th - hopefully this damn snow will clear up by then and I will at least be able to get to the hospital!
When I decided to write that post I was totally at rock bottom - I had kept all of that worry inside my head since mid January and was about to implode. Even if I had anyone to really offload to - I was scared to because that would have made it all more real. As it was there was non-one here IRL (other than hubby) who I could really talk to, let alone ask for advice. Problem is though that when you are trying to deal with something like this, you also want to protect and shield those closest to you. So you put on a brave face - while all the time you are struggling to keep the negative 'what if's' away from you. I managed to do that for a while - but it was draining me and I was just becoming more and more confused and pessimistic.
I was angry at myself for not being stronger, for not being able to get my shit together. Being snowbound here for weeks at a time certainly hasn't helped ( winter wonderland my arse!) Then having the biopsy re-scheduled due to the snow and ice was another major set back. I had geared myself up to face this only to have it delayed on the morning it was due to be done. Trying to stay 'positive' was fast becoming a losing battle - hence my post. I needed to offload and I'm so glad I did because the support you have all shown me has been such a great help
Thank you all
keep your fingers crossed for me on the 18th - hopefully this damn snow will clear up by then and I will at least be able to get to the hospital!
Feb 16th 2010, 12:09 am
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Fingers AND toes!
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Feb 16th 2010, 12:38 am
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Thank you all for the wonderful support you have given me (and hubby). You really are such wonderful people and {hugs} to you all. Just knowing that there are so many people here in my 'corner' has helped make this easier. BE is very much my 'online' family - and just like any family (well mine anyways!) we don't always agree, we have our little tiffs and windups (that's part of the fun) but bottom line when help is needed it's there. What I have experienced here since my first post has completely blown me away. I can't thank you enough for being there for us.
When I decided to write that post I was totally at rock bottom - I had kept all of that worry inside my head since mid January and was about to implode. Even if I had anyone to really offload to - I was scared to because that would have made it all more real. As it was there was non-one here IRL (other than hubby) who I could really talk to, let alone ask for advice. Problem is though that when you are trying to deal with something like this, you also want to protect and shield those closest to you. So you put on a brave face - while all the time you are struggling to keep the negative 'what if's' away from you. I managed to do that for a while - but it was draining me and I was just becoming more and more confused and pessimistic.
I was angry at myself for not being stronger, for not being able to get my shit together. Being snowbound here for weeks at a time certainly hasn't helped ( winter wonderland my arse!) Then having the biopsy re-scheduled due to the snow and ice was another major set back. I had geared myself up to face this only to have it delayed on the morning it was due to be done. Trying to stay 'positive' was fast becoming a losing battle - hence my post. I needed to offload and I'm so glad I did because the support you have all shown me has been such a great help
Thank you all
keep your fingers crossed for me on the 18th - hopefully this damn snow will clear up by then and I will at least be able to get to the hospital!
When I decided to write that post I was totally at rock bottom - I had kept all of that worry inside my head since mid January and was about to implode. Even if I had anyone to really offload to - I was scared to because that would have made it all more real. As it was there was non-one here IRL (other than hubby) who I could really talk to, let alone ask for advice. Problem is though that when you are trying to deal with something like this, you also want to protect and shield those closest to you. So you put on a brave face - while all the time you are struggling to keep the negative 'what if's' away from you. I managed to do that for a while - but it was draining me and I was just becoming more and more confused and pessimistic.
I was angry at myself for not being stronger, for not being able to get my shit together. Being snowbound here for weeks at a time certainly hasn't helped ( winter wonderland my arse!) Then having the biopsy re-scheduled due to the snow and ice was another major set back. I had geared myself up to face this only to have it delayed on the morning it was due to be done. Trying to stay 'positive' was fast becoming a losing battle - hence my post. I needed to offload and I'm so glad I did because the support you have all shown me has been such a great help
Thank you all
keep your fingers crossed for me on the 18th - hopefully this damn snow will clear up by then and I will at least be able to get to the hospital!
From reading your posts you always strike me as a very strong, level headed lady.
Good luck for the 18th.
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Feb 16th 2010, 1:01 am
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Feb 17th 2010, 4:53 pm
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
I'm new to this forum but I wanted to add my own to the others for tomorrow.
to the others for tomorrow.
Feb 17th 2010, 5:54 pm
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Best of luck for tomorrow sweetie, sending lots of positive karma your way.
Feb 17th 2010, 5:58 pm
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Re: Scared, Angry and Confused....
Yes for tomorrow