My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

Feels like we are in limbo

We are still no further forward on this migration roller coaster. We are still waiting to hear from Thales to see if they would be prepared to sponsor us. Even though V hasn't been offered an interview, an email we got off the recruiting guy did seem to suggest they were interested.

The Murray regional board had said they would have a chat and find out some information from Thales. So far nothing. Its just so frustrating.

Once V gets back from Switzerland then he will throw himself into sorting out his Engineers Australia skills assessment. With out that we cant progress any further. He will either get asssessed as a mechanical engineer or mechanical engineer technologist. Hopefully the former as then we can apply for the independent visa or even get Victoria to sponsor us. If its the latter then we will need sponsorship from an employer or possibly as a last resort sponsorship from Queensland on a temp regional visa, which really is our last hope. As that is the only place that lists mechanical engineering technologist as being in demand and it is only on their temp visa listing.

WE still have recieved no information pack from migration abroad or email. Will be checking to see if they have taken our money for nothing. Not sure what we can do about the money if they have taken it and not produced the goods. Certainly will not get them to act on our behalf as agents.

All this has made me feel a bit fed up, i was so optomistic after the Leeds expo, but know im feeling as though we will never get to oz.

The kids have been a real pain as well, they all want to go to oz and keep asking when we will be moving. All i can say is when we get a visa sorted out. Which is like asking how long is a piece of string.

J has been in trouble at school again, they phoned to say if he has any more bad behaviour then he will be expelled. The annoying thing is his behaviour in class is now much better, he is working harder and trying to concentrate more. The problem now lies in the times he is outside in the play ground.

Ive also had a letter send home about D my eldest, we need to make an apt to see his teacher as she is concerned about his behaviour as he has lately becoming silly in class. Apparentley his best friend also got a note home, although his mum has checked his school bag so not sure if he said that to get off the hook or not. I only found out when D when to bed.

I just sometimes feel like i must be a bad parent to be having so many problems with the kids at the moment. It always seems like it's my kids thats in bother , yet there are more trouble makers that go to both their schools who never seem to have a problem with the teachers. It could just be me being paranoid of course. 

 Im sure the lack of knowledge about what is going to happen to their lives after their birthdays must be praying on their minds, i know it is on mine.

Im one of those people who likes a plan even if it is a flexible plan so i can make arrangements etc.

WE have only around 5 months left before V is in the army and i DO NOT want to go back to live in the UK, but if we havent got sorted out with a visa then we will have to. Its so frustrating the not knowing, the wondering if it is all going to work out. Just recently ive dreamed about a our new life, the house we will live in the stuff we will get up to , the freedom the boys will get.

I know Australia is not  going to be some magic place that nothing ever goes wrong. Im well aware of the pit falls and problems we may well encounter, but despite all of that i just want to shout gizza job and let us get to oz.

It doesn't help that it is getting colder here in Paderborn and the weather is awful most of the time. I hate the cold and have had such a bad summer i need some sunshine in my life to help me get through the periods of winter weather. I honestly think i may be developing SAD, ive just lost my motivation and if i could i would just hibernate in bed till the sun comes out.

Looking forward to living in oz is what has kept me going through all the crap ive gone through in the past couple of years so i just hope my dream is not about to be shattered.

right time i was getting a nice mug of cappachinno to warm me up, my fingers are almost iced over, my nose is blue and im starting to resemble a snow man. I kid you not, i feel that cold, im wearing more layers on me than an onion.

so Australia LET ME In

The reality of conflict and war and army life

Last night V and i went out for a farewell meal with our friends, not because we are leaving but because they are deploying to Iraq this week. When they get back (which i hope to god they do) we will hopefully be on are way to oz.

It was such a fanatstic night, we drank to the future, a safe return from Iraq for them, then we had a toast for our fallen friends.

It wasn't till it was time for us to leave the bar to come home that it hit us all that this could be farewell forever.

AS with the army life you get posted and people come and go. WE have been lucky that 18 years ago when i first met my bro Mick and had such an intense relationship and had a bond that will last for life. V and Mick are like brothers and i was the same with him. In army life that is very rare.

so i was delighted that my bro was in Paderborn, although we had not seen each other for over 15 years, it was like we were never aparted.

His wife has become a dear friend and she to is deploying to Iraq. On having a final farewell hug we were all in tears, partly through the drink but because of the fear of the un known.

Paderborn is becoming a ghost town as the soldiers leave to serve once more for Queen and country.

A while back V got his photos out from when he first passed out into the army, out of those not many are still in the army and sadly a fair few have died in conflicts since 1990.

AS a wife over the years ive supported scores of wives who have found army life difficult, ive held them when they have been told their hubby had been injured , ive been their holding their hands when the husbands have sadly died.

This time is different as V isn't going and it feels strange when the boys friends talk about their dads leaving. C my middle son his two closest friends their dads are going away. Its heart breaking hearing them talk about their daddy may not come home , like its a normal thing.  Famlies who are part of the army have a tough life and although im glad that V will never see conflict again, he still has the memories of serving in the Gulf in 1990 when he was travelling in convoy when it was hit by freindly fire, he lost many comrades that day. I will always remember the anguish i felt when i heard it on the news, not knowing if V was injured or not. The guilt when he survived but my neighbours husband didn't.

So tonight, i remember those people i have known who have died since 1990. I shall also say a prayer for those deploying shortly, for a safe return for them all.

No matter where i am in the world i will remember them

I really needed that holiday it was great

WE all had a great time in Holland at the Center Parcs at Loohurst

It wasn't as busy as the one we were at fro christmas last year, the pool wasn't as good (at least that it what the kids thought)

But we all needed a break and made the most of it. the kids found the Dutch signs hilarious trying to prounounce words in a pretend Sean Connery voice.

It was good to just have fun. the pool tired both me  and V completly, after the first day in the pool, we managed to get the kids in bed before 8 and we were asleep before 9.

Our freinds came by train and v met them at Eindhoven, so we could show them around. WE had a lovely meal at the resort family grill restaurent. Ive never seen the kids eat so much.

Our holiday home was near a lake with a load of ducks and J managed to mimic the duck call and had them following him every where. He kept singing here comes the ducks yeah (think the song here comes the girls and you get the picture).

On the day before the holiday finished we went to vist our freinds in Amsterdam, following the trusty satnav. Mel lives not far from the city center above a row of shops so parking was a bit of a problem.

the flat was very modern and it felt homely, Mel and her mum took us on the tram which the kids thought was brill having never been on one, J in particular was amazed by it. Ive never known him be so quiet.

Once in the town center we had a trip on a canal boat. The boys have been on the boat trip around York before, but for them this was so much better , it was a case of look at this look at that, 3 very excited boys.

Afterwards we had Dutch hotdogs, yummy. followed by a walk around the main area.

All in all a brill day. Thanks Mel and Margaret for such a wonderful day in your company 

WE got back to Loohurst late at night, and 3 very sleepy boys had soup and buns and went straight to bed.

Last Friday we got back in time to get sorted for trick and treating. V took J around for 30 mins and the older 2 were with the freinds with discreet parents watching. ( the boys like to think they were on their own) Both boys ended up at different halloween sleep overs . so it was a quiet night for us.

The weekend , saw me catching up on the washing.

V left for Switzerland on the Sunday and i must say ive missed him so much.

Thankfully he is back late tonight.

This week has not been great, ive had a bug and have spent most of it in bed. D now has the bug and has had yesterday and today off school. the  today J complained of a poorly tummy, so i took pity on him and told him to stay in bed. I must of fallen asleep for a couple of hours and when i woke up D informed me the J had been mucking around and been a right pest, so the little toerag had pretended to be ill. If i wasn't feeling so shattered myself i would have took him back to school.

Whilst all this has been going on, we have had contact with the Murray regional board, they are going to see Thales to find out if there is a job avaliable for V and sponsorship is possible.

So thats all that is happening with us. time for a cuppa

A positive vibe from the weekend at Leeds expo.

Despite us now knowing we cant use my skills to get the extra 5 points for the 175 visa. We have now a few options open up to us.V spoke with a few engineering companies who were very keen and have taken his cv. One of them had a very good relocation package aswell.

We spoke a great deal with murray regional board as V had applied for a job in Mulwala and the board have said they will get in touch with the company to ensure they know they will get support to sponsor V on a Regional sponsored migration scheme to get a permanent visa. So that looks hopefull.

Queensland also showed interest in sponsoring us for state sponsorhip, as were WA.

Victoria have saifd to keep an eye out on their skills list as it is changing soon and it could benefit us.

I also spoke with ramsey health who have told me once ive got registration through with NSWNB  that if i email them they will help get me on a return to nursing course at one of their hospitals. So again it looks promising.

So all in all the expo for us was a good expereince and we have gained a lot of contacts .

So next step is for V to get his assessment done by engineers australia. The result of that will depend on how we proceed. If he gets assessed as a mechanical engineer then we can still go for the 175. If not then it will be either the rsms or 176.

Time for a nap, as i got back at 4am and im knackered.   

Had a brain wave

Something my freind said to me last night has just dawned on me, she said i should use my qualifications ive gained to get to oz.

So i did a bit of research and it looks like i may have a way for us to get the independent visa. Im now looking into getting my qualifications assessed as a a welfare worker using my expereince of nursing alongside my diploma in health and social welfare.Lets hope it will be possible. Fingers crossed

Operation oz

It looks like operation oz is not going to b e straight forward. not that we thought it was going to be easy.

NSWNB have emailed me to say they need more information, firstly a passport, lucki;y i can scan and print the pages they want from my passport, they then asked for evidence of my working history so have copied as many pay statements as i could, my character references hadn't been sent, that was easy to sort out just phoned my friend up to remind her. She felt so embarrassed about that.

The hardest to sort out is my professional reference as my last employer wont give me a reference as i hadn't worked there for so long. Not sure what i can do about that. Lastly the nursing transcripts that the NMC sent apparently weren't good enough as they did not have any theoretic components nor a syllabus of training. So that is going to be a hard hurdle to overcome.

Poor V is getting demented with how to get his skiils assessed, as it stands he can be assessed as an engineering technologist  via the sydney accord. However that is not MODL so we are going to need sponosrship to get to oz.

However there is a glimmer of hope as V has applied for a few jobs with Thales in Mulwala, they have emailed him wanting more information. So fingers crossed they will be willing to sponsor him and that will be out route to oz.

Tomorrow we set off for the UK, getting a daft oclock ferry from Dunkirk to Dover. hopefully we will hit Durham around dinner time. the kids and I are looking forward to getting to Durham. I desperatly need to get a smart pair of trousers ready for Saturday, so im hoping i wont be too tired to hit the shops.

Saturday is the expo in Leeds we are both looking forward to that and having a break from the kids. wE will be attending both Sat and Sun. Just hope we get all our questions answered.

Well got loads of laundry to get done so id best crack on  

Exam over operation oz begins

Now that the worse course i have ever done is over, i can concentrate on how we are getting to oz.Got an email from the oz army and if we wait for them it will at least April 2010. So i think its safe to say we wont be bothering with them.

At last we are starting to get some where with some of the applications that we have sent off. A few have asked fr further information, so fingers crossed.

Looking forward to the Leeds /oz expo. Im certainly feeling so much stronger in my self.

I still get the odd day when i feel crap but im getting there.

I dont think i did very well in the exam but just got to wait till DEC to see if i did enough to pass.

Benji has yet another ear infection and is not well so im trying to get an apt with the vets fr him. poor thing is feeling very sorry for himself.

The exam is looming, starting to panic a bit

My exam is next Tuesday and i feel far from ready for it. I know i can only do my best so i shall concentrate on ensuring that i can remember the course themes, the theoretical perspectives and names of the theorists. Thankfully some of the theorists like Goffman, Maslow and Rodgers are old friends from when i did my nurse training and previous OU courses. So at least i can recall them and use them in the exam essay questions.

I had a review with the Dr today and he is pleased with my progress but wants me to remain on the Anti-D's for 6 months, so im not going to argue with him, im glad im feeling much stronger and happier as the whole house seems to be more happier too. My mood was certainly having an effect on the kids, something which i do feel bad about.

Come the 3rd of October V has exactly 6 months left in the army and i think it is finally dawning on him that he needs to secure a job in Australia for our future plans to come to fruition.

I have had to be brutal with him and tell him i cant keep doing everything for him he has to sort out stuff for himself. I cant do his engineers assessment. For the pst few months i have looked for jobs for him and prodded him to get his CV out. I think when i told him about the oz expo in Leeds and virtually booked it for us gave him the push he needed, as he is now starting to get his stuff together.

Well ive got revision to get done.  

The dark clouds are starting to disappear

After a week when i was poorly with a virus and spent a fair few days sleeping all day i am finally starting to feel much better.

Yesterday we booked tickets for an expo in Leeds for the 18th -19th of October and a hotel room for me and V. The kids will be staying at my parents to give us time to be ourselves.

It seems like ages since i felt more content and could look forward to the future.

The support from my cyber friends has been really good and i have been so touched by it. having that support has helped me so much. The emails and private messages and messages on my blog have really helped, so thank you my friends.

Starting on Monday i will be getting my head into revision gear so i can hopefully revise enough to pass my final hurdle on this course.

Time for breakie and sorting out the kids. 

Last week flew by

Having John stay was a really good, he helped me so much by just talking and listening to my worries. He encouraged me to go on German buses into Paderborn town center. Something i would not have done on my own. Thanks to his company i feel so much stronger. In return he enjoyed being part of our lively family. On Saturday we took him up to Hameln our favourite city in Germany. We all enjoyed wandering around and being tourists. We got John a lovely wooden plate with the pied piper as a reminder of staying with us. I cant believe just how quickly the time has passed.

He left on Sunday, V took him up to the airport on the morning and today i can honestly say i am missing his company and wise cracks.

I feel a little flat today, but the whole family are. D is in bed feeling poorly, a little like C was last week. So hopefully he will be back to school tommorow.

I need to get my head round my revision as ive only got 3 weeks till the exam then i can truely relax .

Well id best crack on with revision  

God knows how i did it but i passed my assignment

Im still finding it hard to believe that i managed to pass my final assignment. Only the exam to go next month. Just need to get my head around revision.

Im slowly starting feel much stronger, i still have days when i just want to stay in and avoid people but thankfully they are becoming less and less.

We had a great family day out on Sunday at Rasti land about 1hr 30 mins away, the kids really enjoyed the rides, and the grownups enjoyed the water raft ride, travelling down rapids on a circular raft.

  C is off school today with a high temp , so hopefully the medinol will do the trick and he is back to school tommorow.

The welfare officer has advised us to make a formal complaint against the welsh woman and her family.We also informed D's school that her school had been spreading malicious gossip about our family which really upset D. When V called into the school he found out that the boy had been expelled from school after smashing another pupils nose.

V is going to the RMP's today to put in the formal complaint, now im feeling stronger we are going to fight against what has been happening.

Feeling a little brighter

The Dr was great yesterday, he put me on a milder anti d and told me to take it on at bedtime. So last night was my first dose, i got a good sleep and after V shook me awake i actually felt brighter on waking.

Ive got the rmp's coming shortly to take my statement about J and why i feel he is being victimized  as well as why i believe he has not been involved in the criminal damage on the estate. So im hoping that i manage to hold it together.

Glasgow John arrived on Sunday and the kids have found him to be so amusing. He is an old hippy who loves country and western music. He wears a pony tale which for the kids is so funny.

I still need to finish my assignment, well just make sure it reads well and put in all the references. i shall try and do it this afternoon before the kids come home from school.

The sun is shining and for the first time in a few weeks it is acutally making me feel better too. any way best get my self sorted ready for the plods

One step forward and 3 back

I know now that i was being foolish thinking i could manage without the anti d's . Im still having trouble with keeping awake. Im feeling reasonably clear headed today but yesterday i was all foggy and not very good.

Im seeing the dr on Monday as i do need help but i think the strength of the tablets were too much.

Im managing to take the kids to school and thankfully my next door neighbour has walked with me. She has been a real support and has gone through what im going through now. i hate going down on my own, if i have to a walk very fast just to get there and back as quickly as possible. However when ever i see that woman i feel like my heart will explode. Thankfully ive only seen her twice this week.

Some how ive managed to complete my assignment i think, god knows if what ive written will pass but ive done my best. It was hard going as i only seem to get an hour or 2 where i feel ok at the moment. then i just start staring into space, not really thinking of any thing. i still have to do the references and get some to make sure what ive read is answering the question. If i fail i fail nothing i can do about that.

This nervous break down has scared me so much though, as my dad has mental health problems and had been in psychiatric hospital on and off for most of my adult life. i dont want to be like him.

My mum knows what has happened and she was so shocked as im the strong one, the one who every one in the family turns to for support and has answers when their life is crap. Yet now im the one needing their support. My mam should understand what im going through but somehow has distanced herself from the situation.

V has been a real rock even though i know he has been stressed to hell over this crap.

He has set up a chart system for the boys over behaviour they have to comply with as well as jobs around the house to help me. So far it seems to be working. Im still finding J difficult to work with at times.

Im getting my hair done tommorow V thought it would be a nice treat to get pampered. Must admit i do look a mess at the moment, ive just had no intrest i how i look this week.

On Sunday we have V's mums cousin coming to stay for a while, it was all arranged months back and he has had his tickets booked for his flight for ages. So i will just have to hope it all pans out ok.

part of me thinks i just need to just get on with things and it will all be ok in my more clearer moments, but then when i feel really low i just want to sleep and disapear.

Ive had so much support from my cyber freinds it really has amazed me. One of them spoke with me this morning on msn just to see how i was. it really brightened my day up.

Hopefully i can look back on all of this and learn from it from one day.

Back to school and attempting to get my my life back on track

Since Friday, my life was turned into a sea of fog. the medication i was on caused me to feel so sleepy infact i cant remember anything about the weekend. From what V tells me and a few friends who saw me i was either spaced out and rambling on about nothing or i was sleeping. I know id been told they would take 2 weeks to take effect but a weekend of no memories was bad enough, never mind 2 weeks.

Certainly not something i want to go through again. so i stopped taking the tablets i just could not live that way. Yesterday i was all jittery and still sleepy. however today i feel sort of ok. At least im still awake. I managed to get the kids to school , i even passed the woman who has made me ill, apart from a small amount of hyperventilating i did ok. V was so worried about me and how i would cope on my own. He is on a Health and Safety course as part of his army resettlement  so not able to drop everything , however he is on school hours. 

My tutor has been reasonably understanding but if i want her help i need to crack on with my last assignment. so i shall do my best to write something down and hope it passes.

Been to see the Dr

I want to thank every one for the support and concern people have showed me. I really do appreciate it

My Dr has prescribed me some anti d's and sleeping tablets and wants to see me in 2 weeks to see if im feeling any better. Which i certainly hope i do.

My kids have been a right nightmare today fighting with each other and adding to the stress that ive already got.

The Dr did say if i still feel as bad as i do now in a few weeks time that he may consider admitting me to hospital. Which is the last thing i want .

 I really need a holiday away from it all and im sure i would feel much better. so providing i can cope with everything till after my exam has finished in October then i going to give my self a break.

palpatation and panic attacks

ive just got back from the local naafi, and i nearly fainted. i had to go and get bread and milk as i had ran out and V was in a meeting . Walking down i was sweating loads and by the time i paid for the shopping everything was getting fuzzy and and i was shaking like a leaf. Ive never experienced anything like it. The woman at the till told me i looked awful but to be honest it was as if she were talking to some one else.

i hate feeling like this my breathing was like i was having the worst asthma attack ive ever had. My head is still throbbing and i feel sick.

ive made an appointment to see the dr as i cant go on feeling like this, im not sleeping, very tearfu, so very un like me . im not sure if im comming down with a bug or what. i just want to curl up in a ball and sleep but i cant.

Im trying to keep it all together for the boys, they can do with out a mother whos falling apart . im just hoping the dr can help me feel better

Feeling very let down by the system

The Rmps came today for a informal chat and they came fully expecting us to rollover and take the blame for the actions that J had been acused of. However what they got was us informing them of all the problems and how J had been victimised. They are coming back at a later date after they have gathered more evidence to get statements of V and myself over what has been happening. All the information will be given to V's Commanding Officer and he will make a decison based on what he feels is right. so if he is in a bad mood V could get a black mark against his name and we could be in effect thrown out of the country which will affect our chances of getting to oz. However he may decide that there is not enough evidence to apportion blame on us and a warning is put on his record. so either way this whole nightmare is very upsetting.

We had to turn down the house they offered as it was way too small, we would have to sell most of our furniture to live in it. So how can we do that. So for now we are stuck where we are.

I spent most of last night tossing and turning. The Welfare SGT now knows just how upset this whole ordeal is as despite my best efforts i broke down when i talked of the accustions against my self for verbal abuse. The police woman apologised and i think understood just how this is all effects the family. We have also informed the RMP that we are seeking legal advice regarding what we believe is slander from the Welsh woman across the road from us. I just hope this nightmare is over soon.

Ive informed my tutor what has been happening and how im struggling to get my  head sorted for this assignment. I will do the best i can but im sure had i not had all this crap going on then i would be getting better grades.

Im longing for this to be all over and for us to living a new life in oz. That at the moment is the only thing keeping me going. I just hope it doesn't get snatched away.  

Its all come to ahead now and im furious

Last night some one put a brick through a car window . And just now my husband phoned me up to say that J has been accussed of it is ridiculous. V noticed this morning the car with a breezr block on its bonnet when he went to work and we were all in bed. J now has to be interviewed by the RMP, with us present and a welfare representative. The car owner has gone out of her way to some how pin the blame on our family. Yet she is the foulest mouthed welsh woman i have ever met. Untill last night i had never even spoken to her directly, it was usually V that dealt with her when she used to accuse the boys of something or other. so it was rather suprising to hear that im in the firing line now too.

She has accused me off mouthing off at her last night. She caught me in my back garden and wanted to speak to me as my eldest son has called her son a lying BsD(i dont swear but im sure you get what he said) i was mortified and told her i would speak to my son. I have grounded him for it. The reason he did say it was cos my eldest , middle son and there friend were playing in the park when her son came up and threw some stones at them. However this kid told his mum that he was playing in the park and they threw stones at him. Im not sure exactly what went off but i let this woman say her piece and told her i would deal with my son. I never once rowed with her. But now due to her car being dammaged she is saying we are involved. When V told me what she had said i just burst into tears. Ive told V i want out here as i cant take anymore of it. I loved living in this area but 2 familes have gone out of their way to make it immpossible to live here any more.

V is phoning up to get the keys of the house we have been offered and we will take this house no matter what as if we dont ive told him im taking the kids and i will go and live with my parents.

Any one who knows me know that i avoid confrontation and walk away that get drawen into arguments. If my kids have done wrong then i always make them apologise and i punish them. If they have damaged property then we pay for the damage.

But these accusations are laugable but it really has got to me. Im not seeing the funny side to it at all.

My kids are cooped up for fear of what may happen to them next. Even being in bed hasn't stopped my youngest from being blamed.

I dont know how J will cope with being interviewed as often he gets confused when people bombard him with questions. Altogether there were 4 cars damaged and he is being questioned about every single one as a so called wittness claims he was there. Ive told V i want us to have a legal representative. Just incase they trip J up and he ends up saying something that they think may be an addmission of gulit. AS last night when we talked to him about the cars he got confused and thought we meant the cars he damaged in March. As he knew he had not scratched the cars.

Hopping mad

Once again people on the estate we live on have showed just how shallow they are. J has again been accussed of scratching cars. The first i knew was a girl knocking on the door saying J had scratched her mums car and had been swearing. I asked when it was and she said just now. When i said it cant have been him as he had been in teh house for over an hour, she said well so and so told me. 

This time i know he is completly innocent but it hasn't stopped not only the kids' blatently lying and blaming him even to the RMP's The adults are pointing the finger, my hubby witnessed it all from our front porch.

J has been in the house the majority of the time apart from short bursts of time at the local park. But what got me was of one the kids he had been playing  with even she lied saying she was with him when he scratched the cars. But the only time she played with him was in our house. Older kids are egging the younger kids to lie as what was written on one of the cards, J doesn't even know how to spell.

Im waiting on the RMP knocking at the door and trying to blame him. I really have had enough. Ive told V that if the house we have been offered is bigger even if its only a little bit then i want us to take it.

So Once again im having to keep J in for his own protection. V was fuming when he left for his ten pin bowling match. No doubt he will hit the pins and pretent they are the gossips.  

The main person going around encouraging others to join in the blame J is a woman over the road from us. She is Welsh and  she rants and raves and is the first to blame the boys for anything, usualy as her own son is a right toerag.

Right that is my rant over, time for a cuppa and chill out.

Frustration

Its been a rather frustrating week this week, ive not managed to get much work done towards my assignment the discussion forum which has to referenced as part of the assignment still hasn't been started, so i get started on that. The kids are playing me up so dont get much chance to concentrate on anything.

We have been offered a house in the area we wanted however only a 3 bedroom which is what we have now. Welfare had told us that it would be no problem getting a 4 bed. However the housing people said we needed a medical letter to say that  due to J's ADHD we needed the extra room. Which we duely did. So today we got a call from welfare saying the letter had been turned down. So we either wait on list for a 4 bed, or accept the 3 bed or just stay where we are.

Im not a happy bunny as i told v i would only remain in Germany if we were moved due to all the problems.He wont move into another 3 bed sees no point in it, which i can understand. But ive already agreed to some one moving into the house we own  on a long term agreement. So guess im going to be stuck here with keeping J in as much as possible due to the attitude of some of the people who live around here.

The thing is this house is so small that we have no space for the boys who share to have a chest of drawers in their room, so all the clothes are piled in boxes in the corner.

Im might get V to have a look at the house we have been offered and if the bedroom are indeed bigger then i might just tell him to go for it.Anything is better than this cramped house with no storage.

Right best check on the toe rags as they have just  disappered out of the house