My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

Where does time go?

As another birthday is passed and im another year older, i wonder where the year has gone. This time last year i was preparing for an exam and living in Germany, i was struggling with my life and coping with all sorts of stress which culiminated in a breakdown in the summer holidays. At the time i thought my life would never improve and was in such a negative cycle. Here i am a year one , feeling much stronger and happier and wondering why it all went wrong last year. One important lesson i have learnt about my self is im not super woman, i cant do it all and at times i do need help.

I m enjoying studying again, im plodding on, im not getting fantastic results but im passing my assignments and if i continue as i am i will pass the course and gain my BSc. This something last year i thought was beyond my reach, i thought id blown it, but taking time to reasses the situation i realised i could still get a degree.

Next month is an important one for the family, we will find out if our plan to emigrate to Australia via the army lateral transfer scheme is a viable one. We hope and pray it is , but if its not we know what steps we have to take to reach that goal. It may take longer to get to oz but we will one day be able to call australia home.

Since moving back to the UK my parents seem to have taken a back seat in my life, they have made no effort to visit us and see where we are living. They never call to see how we are doing unless they have something to tell me. Thats fine by me. Once over i felt rejected when i saw just how much my parents ran after my sister and her children when they arrived. Now i think so what. weather my parents are adjusting to life with out my family in preperation for us going to oz i really dont know.

As my gran used to tell me you only have one life so go out and life it. So we are, we have no intention of living in the UK permanently.

I hope that i will be celebrating my 40th birthday in Australia, ive also told V that for our 20th wedding anniversary (July 2010) we will renew our vows, i picture doing this on a beach with our oz family and freinds sharing a special moment in our lives.

As i grow older i tend to find my self reflecting on what ive done in my life and what i still want to achieve. There is so much i still want to do, but for now getting my degree and getting back into nursing are my 2 imediate goals. V being accepted into the oz army will just be the icing on the cake.

Well id best get back to my books , as i still need to work hard to get through this course.

Good Luck

08:16, Mon 8 June 2009 .. Posted by Jo.Ru_onway

Have everything crossed for V's application. Hope all your dreams come true
Jo x

You'll get there in the end

11:02, Tue 9 June 2009 .. Posted by crazyorangeone

Hi Sweetie,

I know it must be tough with your family, but I believe that the family that matter are the family we make for ourselves, such as our partners and kids first of all, and you are really lucky there. V and the boys are wonderful, never forget that. Then you have your friends, and you know I consider you as family. Your my honoury sister and always will be and hey if I get this job in the Middle East I won't have as far to travel to see you all in Oz when you get there.

I think renewing your vows is a lovely idea, I hope I'm invited ;-)

Take care of yourself girl and keep going your a strong person who I look up to, and I don't do that lightly. We all have rough stages but I think were all slowly on the up and we'll get there together.

I'm back in UK towards end of July will catch up with you then ok.

Love
Melissa