My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

Surrounded by boxes

My whole life is slowly being boxed up ready for Thursday . As i was going through some of my drawers i found a letter from Ina, possibibly the last letter i got from her before she died, i then found a lovley card from my granma  to the boys, in it she described what her and granda were up to. I welled up as i read it, i miss them all so much. When ever i moved house and opened the door to my new house there was always a card on the door step from Ina and my gran.  this time there will be none. There will be no more excited phone calls describing the new house and thanking them for the cards.

AS i was clearing out stuff and decluttering i realised that some ornaments and keepsakes can never be replaced so they will come with us where ever we go. However there are some stuff i have that mean very little to me, things i bought and or have been given that i no longer need or like so i will get rid of. It has been a somewhat theraputic yet painful process. like finding old letters. I can never part with them. Some are from when i training to be a nurse. They are part of my history.

Im glad im leaving Germany now, the past year has not been a kind year for us out here. Its a clean start, a chance to put a few demons behind me.

We start life as a civvy family and not another army family. I know our move to Catterick will be a tempoary move while we wait for the visa process to take shape.

I know emigration is a roller coaster of emotions and seeing the fires in Victoria made me realise just what being in Australia and in Victoria may mean. There may be risks in living in a hot country. The heartache i felt watching the devestation to a place i hope one day to call home. I imagined what my family would feel knowing we were living there if another fire happened. Despite the emotions i know in my heart that i would rather take the risk of living in a country where things can happen such as fires, hurricans and other natural disasters.

Every time i feel some doubts creaping in to my mind, i can my gran saying life is always full of dangers but if you try and avoid them you will miss out on a good and exciting life. You could get run over by a bus just walking across the road to get a loaf of bread.

I know pur roller coaster has been along one and our first avenue has come to nothing, but we will try another and hope it pays off.

Moving back to the UK gives me a chance to say my goodbyes properly to family and freinds who have affected my life both positivly and negativly. If we had gone from Germany straight to oz i could not have done that.

AS V says we can sort our life out and do what is important before we finally can say goodbye to the UK.

My Uncle Steve used to say life is what you make it, just go out and live it. Those special people who were a big part of my life that are no longer on earth im sure follow me and help me make the right choices in life.

WE may be going to Catterick, with no job in the offering, with my final OU course to get my BSc, money may be tight but i know if we pull together as a family we can make it.

Ive more packing to do so i shall see ya when i get to Yorkshire  

Blimey ...

10:26, Sun 22 February 2009 .. Posted by Hutch

Best of luck with it all. I'm sure it'll come together for you. :)