My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

Happy Birthday Granma

How i wish i could say it to you. Its been nearly 6 months since you left me to join Granda , Uncle Steve , Ina , Walter and David in the peaceful place called heaven. Im sure you are all looking down on us and keeping us from harm.

 There is so many things i still had to tell you and so many things i wanted to show you, i wish i could you show you the photos of the house we live in. I remember when i first left home you said, sweetheart send me a photo of your room in the nurses home and the views you can see from it. I did as well, you told me it made you feel closer to me. Every house ive lived in while being away i have done the same. When we moved to Germany i promised you i would show you footage of the house V had taken, but we  just never found the time. I regret that now. No more will i be able to share the excitement i feel on seeing something new.

I miss you so much still granma , but im trying to keep it together so i can pass my studies and make you proud. you always said i wore my heart on my sleeve and it would get broken. Yet you always told me to be true to myself. So being true to my self i will always see teh good in everyone and i know i will get hurt at times. But im sure i could be no other way.

I try to get on with my parents as i know that is what you wanted, i will never have the automatic love for them that i had with you.

I hope if you can see us that you will be proud of me and the family as we work hard to make a decent life for ourselves.

I know you liked a drink on special occasions so i shall say bottoms up and have a good birthday, sorry i cant put flowers on your grave or place a card on it. I shall do that next time im back in the UK.

Just so you know when we finally get our own block of land in oz and build our house, im planting some special roses for you and the rest of the freinds and family i have lost to heaven.

For ever in my heart your loving grandaughter xxxxxxxx