My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

starting to panic!!!!!!!!!!

Its coming up to the silly season, on Monday i have a 'Hollywood theme' fancy dress to go to. Have i anything to wear. Nope. The fancy dress shop is miles away and V is constantly working and despite me telling him that i need an out fit i just know it will be a last minute thing and off course as im in the larger sizes there wont be anything i like that will fit me.

On the 15th ive got the christmas ball to attend. However none of my clothes fit and so far the only shop ive looked in dont have my size. So im starting to panic as i dont know where all the clothes shops are. A friend had promised we would have a girly shopping day to get our ball gowns , but as she is in the army it never happened. Most of the shops close early so its hard to go shopping when V gets in from work also we would have the kids which is a recipe for disaster.

Since finding out about my under active thyroid ive been feeling quite down. Im just plodding on with studying and hiding my self away. As ive put on so much weight all my self confidence has evapourated away. Im almost at the stage of cancelling the baby sitter and not going to the christmas functions. As im sure i will look like the back end of a bus no matter what i get to wear..

V is trying his best to boost me, but i just feel like a beached whale. It doesn't help that the kids have started calling my wobbly bum, fatty etc. (thankfully only in the house)

I hate feeling this way. I normally love christmas and really get into it. But this year there just seems to be so much going wrong. The kids are constantly fighting with each other. V is hacked off with the constant preassure at work and then coming home to another battle ground.  We have tried calmly talking to the boys but it goes in one ear and out the other.

Im so looking forward to our break at center parks. If only just so the kids can be looked after while V and i can chill.

Im hoping that the thyroxine will kick in soon and the weight will start coming off as i feel so un heathly, despite having a good healthy diet. Im going to try and get back to the gym again soon too. the dr advised me to wait untill my energy levels start to rise other wise iw ill just over do it.

Ah well back to studying

(((((HUGS))))))

12:28, Tue 4 December 2007 .. Posted by julesandco

Oh Mandy, 3 kids are hard enough work without all the extra pressure you are under. Have a huge sunny hug from Oz and hope you feel more like your 'old self' very soon :o)

Jules x
(Mother of 3, Master of none!)

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01:38, Tue 4 December 2007 .. Posted by Sam

Mandy

Hopefully the drugs will kick in and you'll feel much better
Go and enjoy the xmas do's and tell your kids that they are being a bit unfair with the name calling, remind them that there's kids out there without any parents or a mum who would love to be in their shoes (works for mine)

Have a huge Hug and i hope things improve soon

(((((( hug )))))

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08:06, Tue 4 December 2007 .. Posted by gobbyjock

Chin up mate! You know what those functions can be like anyway - everyone looks beautiful at the start of the night but by the end they are staggering about peed, the make ups half way down their face, a nail has broken, the feet are all blisters because of the new shoes which have somehow gotten lost under a table somewhere. You bloody well go woman and hold your head up high - then have a good look at them all at the end of the night - I know who I`d bet on to be looking good still.

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07:03, Wed 5 December 2007 .. Posted by herrchook

Big hugs Mandy, I 100% understand how you're feeling. Hope the meds kick in soon for you.

Gill