My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

Really struggling at the moment

Yesterday i made a start on my essay part of the assignment but im really pulling my hair out with it. My tutor has told me i dont have to do the assignment if im getting too stressed out about it. AS ive done so well on my past few ones my marks are high enough for me to have a subsitute mark and still pass. However ive never taken the easy route with any thing, i always feel that using the subsitute rule is a bit of a cop out.i still have the exam and if in the unlikly event i didn't do well on the course i could still fail. If that were to happen i would feel as though not doing my final assignment would be the cause.

Today ive spend most of it in bed i feel really crap, i started a few weeks ago feeling like a cold was brewing up, last night i had a blocked nose from hell and hardly slept. Ive got a really sore throat and generally feel washed out.

My parents called over today with a few plants for the back garden and the first thing my dad said was 'god you look  awful'  my mum put the plants in the garden with the help of the boys, while my dad borrowed my pc to check his email(having problems with his pc).

I asked if they could stay till the youngest was in bed, as i didn't have the energy to run around after him today. but they only stayed long enough for me to cook the boys tea.

The boys have all been hyper active the past  couple of days. Possibibly due to me grounding them. The eldest has been staying out later than he should and not getting his homework done. The middle son has been involved in fighting some of the other boys in the street and i dont want him becoming a thug. The youngest has been using language so foul even his dad was shocked.

I hate foul language  at the best of times, so when my own 5 year old is coming out with it then i try to nip it in the bud.

I will be so pleased to get out of this area as i can predict if we were to stay that despite my best efforts to bring my boys up to be well mannered boys, they may still get into trouble simply due to the peer pressure of the kids on the estate. 

At times the eldest can be really good though, on Saturday, we were in a news agents and i gave him 50p to get some sweets (the other 2 were at a party), he politely asked for a box of poppets , the shop keeper was so taken a back and said it was the first time in over 10 years she had heard a child asked politely for sweets. She thanked  him and me i should be proud of him. I must admit it did give me a warm feeling inside.  

was the kids have settled down and are asleep , i shall be off to bed myself. I just hope i can shake this off and still get my assignment done.