My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

just so tired

I know my course is getting towards the end, but im just constantly tired. It is taking all my effort to keep the momentum going with the studying. Ive got constant headaches and have been getting every bug, cold thats going.

Some of the other mums in the school yard have made comment about how washed out im looking. Ive not been to the gym in ages and apart from the walk to school im not getting any exercise. The only time im out of the house these days is to get the shopping in.

This studying has taken over my life and it s not fair. The last time i was studying the kids were younger and i studied while they were in bed, doing house work and the gym during the day. This time round they are older and im not getting much studying done on a night, As i spend most of the night running up and down stairs trying to keep the youngest  in bed. By the time he is settled its so late. I try and get an hours studying done but that means its after midnight before im in bed. So i study more in the day, which means the housework only gets done briefly and only the basics. I miss not going to the gym, my weight has luckily not gone up, but i feel so unhealthy and not like i normally do.

The kids are off school next week so i know i will get little studying done, however im going to use that time to plant some flower seeds in the garden. The kids are looking forward to doing it. Even if we dont get the benefit  of the flowers.

I sometimes wonder why im putting my self through this. Im no academic, i only got 2 o levels enough to get in to do my EN training. Unlike my husband who finds studying to be a doddle, i have to put so much effort in. I just hope i manage to pass this course. If i manage to get through all the courses ive chosen and get my degree i think i will see pigs flying past.

I know is not far off and my exam will soon be here, then i can relax and spend time with the kids again. Ive promised the kids that once my exam is finished i will treat them to a day out and a picnic(weather permitting). Or a slap up meal at our fav brewsters.

I long to be able to sleep at night without Goffmans batch living going through my brain or the various theories and case studies entering my dreams.

I must be a night mare to live with at the moment.

Oh well the kids are coming in from playing and are freezing so hot choccy all round. Just wish we had a bicckie to go with it. Guess i need to do the shopping tommorow.

ah well thats it for now