My families adventure on the road to oz via Germany

Made to feel like a useless mother

Having a moan. i was having a good day i got my assignment finished and posted and was looking forward to a night off from study and enjoying a glass of wine .

That was until i got a phone call from my eldest's class teacher.  She wants to see me and his dad about his sudden bad behaviour.

she was complaining that my son seems to be having problems in class with following instructions straight away. He also has been caught talking in class and it is just not acceptable behaviour .  Then she pipes up, could it be due to the fact we are moving to Germany. All this moving around is not good for your son. she says, he needs stability to be able to get a good education. She then mentions the fact that im a student my self, it must be difficult to find time to help my son when i have my own studying to do. I could scream.

Of course the fact that he hates the school and has been picked on has nothing to do with it. Which the school have only done a small amount about. Of course the fact that he wanted to end his life last year due to the bullying . I would of thought that would be of more importance than talking in class.

So i told his teacher, how unhappy he has been at home when he gets in from school and how he enjoys the holidays so much and i have to bribe him to go to school. My son did come with a letter from school saying he had been given 3 consequences . when i asked him what they were for he told me his pen had dropped and he wanted to pick it up , but it rolled over to another desk, so he asked another boy (the teachers pet) to pick it (got a consequence for talking). He then tried to get the teachers attention by asking if he could get his pen (2nd consequence) and the third for getting off his seat and going to pick his pen up. He was asked to leave the class for distrupting the class.  

No the reason for his behaviour, has to be my fault. I deliberatly go out of my way to make life difficult for my family, i up root them just for the sake of it.

It just gets to me so much. I try my hardest most of the time on my own to make sure home work gets done, that my boys have a healthy diet and can come to me with their problems. I punish them when i think it is needed . I do my best, but my sons school have me labled as a a mother with problems. 

The school are aware that V is in the army and we are moving so that the boys can see their dad every day and not just once a fortnight for a weekend.  I gave them plenty of notice and im doing all i can to make the move as easy as possible for the boys.

I sometimes feel like im banging my head against the wall. I darnt complain as all i get from my parents is , well you did marry a soldier, you knew what you were letting your self in for.

I sometimes feel as though im taking one step forward and two back.

Now where is that bottle of wine i need a drink to calm me down.I feel better for getting that off my chest.