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Fri 16 February 2007 - Blimey another update ..... no stopping me now!!

Well just thought i'd drop a quick line in

My week has not been one of my best so far,

This week has been a bad one for me for the last few years, mind you i'm getting better used to be the whole bloody month

It's my neices birthday on the 13th,

My sisters on the 14th

Mine on the 15th (woohoo happy birthday to me)

And

the anniversay of my dad's death on the 16th!!!

Been 9 years this year since he passed away and although most of the year i just shelve it to the back of my mind and get on with life, this week in Feb just creeps back up on me, i still re-live the whole week in detail every year, but like i say i'm getting better used to be the whole month.

I think it hit me pretty hard this year, being away from my family, every year we would have a big family get together because it's also my oldest brothers birthday on the 24th Feb and my other neices on the 28th Feb, and of course this year i'm not there.

Spent 2 days on the phone to the UK, swapping Happy Birthdays with my sister, very emotional calls with my mum too, i sat back and had a drink for all my family (woops no change there then)

Sat here with tears trickling down my face even now, this weeks been the worse for missing my family, but i'm pretty sure that come next week i'll be back to my normal self (if i've ever been normal that is )

I am starting to make a big effort into finding a job as this will give me something else to think about! plus bring in some much needed money, got a friend in a school who has put in a good word for me for a job and i just need to get the paper work sorted out and sent off (fingers crossed)

Did pretty well on my birthday (considering the cash flow) my girls (bless them) spent their money that they had saved from xmas on getting me loads of little bits, nighties, hair clips and sweets (i'm pretty sure they want me to share them as they bought their favourites)