Well it is finally beginning to feel like I am going completely insane! I have taken a break from a lot of the threads on this site cos frankly i find it all too stressful.
This last week has been awful. I have been ill with a chest infection (I never get ill!!) and I feel stressed out the whole time. The house is under offer - if the  buyers ever get back in touch with their solicitors details - and the neighbours have pretty much bought all my furniture this weekend.  I have told work I wont be going back after Christmas (hopefully before that), work is pretty much intolerable at the minute.  I have never been in a position before where I have had to stay in a job when it was in my best interests to leave. I bite my tongue every day for fear of saying the wrong thing or upsetting the wrong person  I have however, written my letter of resignation and I for one am not going quietly.  My Uncle died just over a week a go and tomorrow i have to drive way down south, stopping in B&B overnight ready for the funeral on Tuesday. It is with mixed emotions i am going. Obviously it is sad circumstance but it is also the final time i am going to see the extended family. My cousin emigrated to Canada a year ago and she has had to come back to bury her Dad. It is going to bring home all kind of emotions i am sure!

My ex husband has been a complete t*** tonight! Abusive text messages all evening about how i am taking his kids away from him!  I rang and he is obviously under the influence (!) and will remember nothing of it in the morning. Why cant pepple understand that it isn't all easy for me either?  I know I am taking the kids away from not just their Grandparents but their Dad. If I wasn't so sure it was the right thing to do I would have buckled long before now. Its not going to be a bed of roses, of that I am certain, and I haven't bought a pair of those rose tinted glasses everyone talks about, but I do believe that one day, it is all going to make wonderful sense and the kids are going to turn round and thank me for biting the bullet.

All that remains left to be said is ............................................." please please please let my visa be here soon ! xx