the last few weeks
Posted on Sat 27 September 2008 at 09:41
I decided about 3 - 4 weeks ago that I really didn't want to work where I was any longer. There are many issues but the most telling for me is working with the ID/LD patient group. In the UK we would call them 'Learning Disability'. Here in New Zealand they are know as 'Intellectual Disability'. I am used to working with patients who will eventually get better and stand a chance of living fulfilling lives in the community. These poor buggers are only ever going to live a half-life at best. They are never going to get better. There is no medication can can ever get rid of a learning or intellectual disabilty. These patients are never going to get married. Never going to have kids. Never going to plan their foreign holidays. Never going to do their tax returns. Never going to go down the Pub and have a laugh with their mates. Never, ever going to live a real life. And I have found that very disheartening. To the degree that I need to work somewhere else. So that I can feel that what I do on a daily basis might in some, small way might make a difference. I like to think that I am good at my job but when I find myself on the carpet, yet again restraining someone who can't see beyond the next five minutes, I think my career and what I have to give is wasted.
So!! I'm outta here as of Wednesday! I'm off to a Unit that is female Forensic admission with a few sub-acute males thrown in for good measure. I know I did a good interview, so I will use that a bargaining tool.
The girl has gone to Hamilton for 9 days. We are planning a big road trip on the Ducati - off to Auckland and various other places when she is away.
And Poppy kitty is most definitely pregnant. Can't wait to see what she produces this time. But this time round, we won't have to give them away right away. This time we should have time to enjoy those kittens. And give them the time and care that they deserve. It was so sad that the first time she produced, I wasn't in the frame of mind mind to be able to devote myself to them - and her. I hope I can make up for it this time round - because she is so lovely, she deserves it.
Went for my 2nd colonoscopy on Thursday. This time they knocked me out completely. Thank the Lord for small mercies eh? And I have to go back to something I said in a previous entry. Never mind they might put up big advertising billboards in the Mount Victoria Tunnel about my arse and the ongoings there.... My arse HAS becone the sodding Mount Victoria Tunnel!!
I was beginning to wonder if they might not be shooting some kind of black comedy down there. Dear me - what kind of film would that be eh? Answers on a postcard please.........
There have been so many bloody medics though it recently it may as well be a public sodding road. However, it's all good - they didn't find anything untoward on their latest foray - so I'm in the clear colon-wise!
And for my beautiful Shona.
My best friend in the whole wide world. The person who knows most about me. The person I can share my soul with. The one person in this world who I can look to for unconditional love. My mate. My friend. My sister. I just love you so much it is easier to tell the world than it is to tell you.
Your mates just don't don't realise what they have in you. Because you never betray a secret. Because you are always there for them. Because you always give far, far more than you ever get back.
But I know what you have done for me. You have always been there. You have always stood by me. You have always given me the confidence to make the right decision. You have held me together when my world has been shaken. You have been the voice of reason - and stupidity, it has to be said! I have got on the phone to you and been crying - by the time I got off, I was crying laughing!. I hold you so close even though we are half the world apart. I just need you to know I love you so much that I would do anything for you - as you have always done for me. Love you mate - and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! xx