for my friend
Posted on Sat 13 September 2008 at 08:10
I would like to dedicate this entry to my friend. And to her family who are all all undergoing the same trauma.
A lovely woman who has very recently suffered a devastating turn of events.
Sweetheart, if I could take some of that pain away and bear it for you, I would. If I could make it all go away, I would. If I could do anything to make you and your family smile again, I would But in this world, it just isn't possible. But if it is of any comfort to you and yours, I cried when I heard your news. I can't imagine what kind of comfort that would bring other than knowing I care deeply about you. You have been there for me so many times, bearing me up when I have been really down, just being yourself and making me feel part of the real world again. I can't even begin to imagine how deep your pain must be - I truly believe my own struggles over the past year pale into huge insignificance next to yours right now. Your world has collapsed around you at the moment. You must feel like there is no way forward. The sheer weight of your sadness and belwilderment at the world must be crushing. I truly grieve with you but my grief can only be a pale shadow of your own. But you strike me as such a strong person that I feel you will find your way forward to some measure of acceptance and bear this overwhelming sadness with dignity and stoicism and find a path through it. I believe your faith will be of help to you at this time.
I feel that I have benefitted so much from your compassion, loyalty, friendship and support in the time I have known you that I need you to know that if you ever need me, I so hope I can return that grace and beneficence. It was never a favour, it's just in your nature to reach out to people and give what you can. You have that gift of touching people and making them feel better about themselves and the world in general
You have enriched my life simply by being my friend and I so want to stop your pain right now. But I can't. All I can do is tell you that I love you and care about how you feel.