It never rains but it pours

Posted on Fri 7 December 2007 at 11:31

Had a phone call yesterday from the Occupational Health nurse following my chest X-ray on Monday.  Although they have deemed me fit to start work on Monday, the OH consultant wants to see me on Tuesday.... She reassured me it was nothing active, but could I take my immigration X-ray from last August with me so they could have a look at that too.  As you can imagine, I felt really stressed even though she told me not to worry.  She gave a good explanation of what it is about but no amount of explaining will stop you fretting, will it?  It’s human nature to fret.  I guess it’s where he broke my heart…….

Damn, blast, bugger and all the other words that don't spring to mind right now.

For the first time since the world turned upside down for me 2 months ago, I felt like giving up and buggering off back to Britain.  I just couldn’t believe it.  But now that the initial tsunami of self-pity has rampaged over me, I feel a lot better today.  Just go with the flow.  Resigned to what fate is going to chuck at me this time.

And Shane Mark and Darren – I’m fine, you don’t need to send more flowers, I’m OK really.

 I’ve sorted out the shed, cut the grass and finished the power-washing that I wanted doing.  Today I hired a carpet cleaner and have already cleaned the carpets.  Trying to keep busy really – leaves less time to stress. 

Just the last few things to check – not sure I’ve told everyone of our change of address but the mail is redirected for 2 months so what I haven’t remembered ought to show up by then.

 And next week I finally start work.. I spoke to my boss earlier and I start induction at 8am at the Marae on Monday, so need to wear a skirt and look presentable.  I will go into school and see about the after school club so that will take care of the girl.

Melissa is off for a sleepover at the Fearons tonight, not sure what I will do with myself yet but I’m sure I can find plenty to do.  Me and Robbie Williams might just spend a night in!!!  And tomorrow we are off to east coast with Jac & Adie and their dogs.  Looking forward to that.  Then off to Maz’s housewarming in the evening.  That should keep me busy!!

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Posted by kev&sarah on Fri 7 December 2007 at 12:50 - Link

I just can't believe what I have just read Karen. Someone, somewhere really is testing your strength at the moment. I've got my fingers crossed that this all amounts to nothing xxx

Uncertainity.

Posted by Dave+Jules on Fri 7 December 2007 at 02:53 - Link

Karen, I know how you are feeling, in May this year I was diagnosed with B-cell chronic lymphocytic Leukemia. We had been in Canada 18 months. The hematologist told me a maximum of 10 years. Earth shattering news for us. Lots of emotion and deep thoughts on the future.

My last visit to the Hematologist he told me there had been no change in my white blood cells since last time, and he has revised his outlook now to 10 years before treatment. Now we concentrate on living and enjoying life.

Whatever comes you way, focus on living, being as healthy as you can, and giving life your all.

thanks mate

Posted by karonious on Fri 7 December 2007 at 09:11 - Link

thanks for that, kinda puts things in perspective.

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Posted by Professional Princess on Sat 8 December 2007 at 02:39 - Link

Karen, it is easy for me to say but keep an open mind till that chest Xray.

They found a shadow on my Dad's lung on his chest Xray, we were all so worried and they are almost certain it is scar tissue, but are doing a CT scan to confirm.

It goes to show that our own diagnosis is far worse than the actual diagnosis and until your Xrays are fully checked out, you won't know anything.

You are a strong woman who has an ability to deal with whatever comes her way and this will be no different.

The Doctors are being cautious as they should be and I pray that everything is going to be just fine for you.

I am thinking of you and will continue to do so until you get your results.