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look out world!Posted on Thu 8 November 2007 at 11:15Life is looking up! I won 3rd place in our ward sweepstake for the Melbourne Cup. I won $6 for a $2 stake......... Wooohooo! But just winning something is good for a change.
Had the most brilliant news from Rothes, made me cry tears of joy this time but I forgot to ask for permission to tell the world so can't share that one with you.
The kittens are doing well - the last one has been adopted too - Caroline is going to take Willow and Silkie so I feel better about that. They are 3 weeks old now and stagger about drunkenly on their bandy little legs. They have their eyes open but I don't think they see much right now. They are just so cute. Melissa and I have decided that we will let Poppy have one more litter and then have her neutered. She is such a contented Mum, she was made for it!
Darren (my youngest son) goes to Glasgow later this month to sit his skills test - the final testing in his 4 year Painting and Decorating appenticeship. He is a bit worried but I guess there are few of us in the world that wdon't feel a bit apprehensive about tests. Darren - take your time and read the questions - I'm sure you will do well. I'm thinking about you and wishing you all the best. Come on Dear Readers, spare a moment to mentally send Darren some karma to help him on his way. I know it works you know - as your kind thoughts and positive vibes have gone a long, long way towards helping me through my own trials recently. Did I mention he is thinking on coming out to spend a year with me? I would dearly love to see him, it would be so good to have him here and show him the best of this brilliant country. I want my friends to meet him and see what a great lad he is. As long as he comes because he wants to do it for himself, not just to shore me up. I try not to think about it too much in case the whole idea falls through and I end up feeling disappointed.
I really feel I'm getting somewhere now. I have booked my removals for the 27th of this month - the day after I finish work. Melissa will be on a school trip to Rainbow's End that day so will come home to an empty house. I think she will probably spend the night at dad's but we haven't discussed that yet. Then we drive to Porirua and our new lives on the 28th. It's really starting to happen now and I'm just so glad to be doing something about it, not just wallowing in my misery. The moving money came out of our suspended joint account - he agreed to diivvy up for that. God, it's been some rollercoaster ride this last wee whilie but at least now I am in control of events, not just being swept along like a piece of rubbish in the gutter, which is very much how I felt for most of it.
No, I'm back on top, I'm almost happy and feeling good about the future. My colleagues have been making very nice remarks in the last few days. I have lost a lot of weight recently, had my hair cut and had some eyliner tattooing done so suffice to say I look different now to the Karen at the beginning of October. I've stopped blaming myself for this - I didn't deserve for this to happen. Ian came round and we did another hypnotherapy session, this time about moving on. I now look on this as a bereavement - I've lost the life I hoped and dreamed of but I can look forward to a new life, a new happiness, a new future. So look out world, here I come!
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