kittens!

Posted on Tue 23 October 2007 at 11:59

Well, still waiting to hear on the job front:  starting to worry now as the interview was Friday and it’s now nearly midnight Tuesday.  I console myself with the thought that it has been a bank-holiday type weekend and the interviewer may well have taken another day off also.  She certainly hasn’t contacted my referees yet as I saw them both at work today.  Please hurry up and let me know as the wait is agonising.

I have been awake since 4am this morning, fretting in case I slept in and missed my flight.  Once I landed in Hamilton, I switched my phone on and was astounded to learn that Poppy had popped and had 3 kittens!  They are home now and Poppy seems to be a diligent mother, incredibly skinny but very much the furry purry.  There is a tabby, a ginger and white and a Poppy lookee likee: creamy and white with maybe a bit of grey.  That one is the runt so I hope she makes it. 

I met steve at the Bank at lunchtime, then he came to pick Melissa up before I went to work and then he was here with her when I finished work.  I feel sad seeing him and my life would be happier and less stressful if I didn’t have to see him anymore.  We are civil but it breaks my heart to have to deal with him.  I just want to go to bed and pull the covers up over my head and cry and cry and cry – like I did last night and the night before. I feel worn out and pathetic now that I am back in Hamilton.  I felt better when I was away – it’s probably a combination of tiredness and worry that makes me feel so sad tonight.  I’m better than this usually but to quote Morrisey, heaven knows I’m miserable now.  Ah well, tomorrow can’t be any worse surely?  Please Lord don’t make me regret  writing that.

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Posted by Professional Princess on Wed 24 October 2007 at 12:12 - Link

You must not feel pathetic, you are a strong women picking up the pieces of a mans 'mistake'.

It might take a while and it will be damned painful, but you will get there.

Be kind to yourself.