serenity

Posted on Thu 11 October 2007 at 10:20

Ahhhh, it's been a long day. 

Dear Lord, that's twice in one week I have had to put petrol in the car - what's all that about?  Possibly because I have driven it for a change!!

I had another marathon session with the jet washer today, have basically cleaned all of Hamilton and the surrounding environs.  This place has been scrubbed inside and out so when they come to take the photos for the state agents on Saturday morning, hopefully it won't be found wanting.  Steve came round and helped move things ect so I'm pretty damned organised.  We did some more talking, basically ironing out details and finishing things off.  Hopefully not much more of that as it's not easy and I want it all behind me so that i can start to move forward.

My OT colleague Ian came over this afternoon and we did a hypnotherapy session.  I am deeply impressed and incredibly grateful as this evening I have a measure of peace and serenity that has been sadly lacking over the past week.  I thought that he had talked for about 10 minutes as I lay there - 40 minutes had passed!!  The trick is not to try and anaylise it or pick it apart - I can assure you, there will be none of that as I need to hang on to this calm for as long as possible.  I am just so thankful to have some respite from the pain that has underpinned every day recently.  If you have every considered hypnotherapy but aren't sure if it is for you, I wholeheartedly endorse it and recommend it to everyone.  I had it before for stopping smoking so I know it works for me.  Ian - thank you so much for today, it has made a huge difference and  hopefully I can start to put myself back together.  If anyone around here is interested, let me know and I will put you in touch - he's brilliant.  And yes, I am aware that it may all be gone tomrrow but at this point, I am just so relieved to be free of the barrage of sorrow, confusion, pain and torment, that I'll take whatever comes.

So, here's me, in my little tranquil place, enjoying my peace of mind and healing a little bit.  It's not all joy and enthusiasm but I feel serene and accepting of whatever hand fate plays me next.

:o)

Posted by julesandco on Fri 12 October 2007 at 12:15 - Link

Glad you've had a good day..... hopefully you'll have another one tomorrow... and the day after. Jules x