| My fitness is improving and I'm starting to see a real difference in my endurance. People tell me I look great, but I can't see any obvious changes of weight loss. I'm quite critical of myself, so I just feel like a blimp! Even in pilates my capacity to balance is starting to improve, I thought I might prove the instructors wrong and be the only person ever in the world not to improve. I'm pretty repulsed at myself for getting into such a state in the first place. For all this work and diet change I should look like a millon dollars, but I'm still chipping away at my accumulation of poor diet, and that's one hell of an accumulation! I did my 10km in 1hr and 40 mins comprising walking and running, so I'm pretty confident about Rotorua in March. I've also realised that I've been denying my girls some really important additions to their lives, so I've sorted out dance classes for them both. Moons will do ballet and Pip will do 'Baby Boppers.' My walking has seen me encountering so many kids in the sea in little dingys without life jackets on. It really annoys me, there is a temporary sand bar on the coast at the moment, and strong rips. I'm a confident swimmer, but I wouldn't dream of getting out there on a kayak without a life jacket on, so how can parents let their kids paddle out there. Am I supposed to believe that if the sandbar disappears and the currants are strong, the kids will have enough endurance to make it back? Judging by the size of the Mother's sitting on the beach, they sure as hell wouldn't get out there in time. I realised in my annoyance, that I've still not got around to getting the girls into swimming lessons. Such a fundamental need here in NZ. So I've get them enrolled in that to. Their social calender is getting extensive! Over the holidays, I've had a few Mothers call inviting Moons to various get togethers. I don't know who the parents are, or even who the kids are! Moons is a pretty popular kid. Its important I tap into her energy and confidence and get it directed into something valuable. Since I began this overhaul of my lifestyle, its had a fantastic ripple effect over the whole family. Steve is looking better and healthier by the day. Our Canadian residency application is at another block. We now need passport photos of all of us! Grrr! Well, I better get back to study, something tells me 2009 is going to be a busy year! |