| The woman with the mental breakdown didn't call me back. In fact, despite leaving several messages, she didn't return my calls. This was just the fuel I needed. Finally she called me on a lovely Sunday lunchtime and told me, blubbing down the phone that she was an alcoholic. I told her that whilst I felt bad for her, ultimately she had a daughter that needed her, she was old enough, and it was time to get her shit together. At the end of the day, I'm all for helping people that genuinely need it, but she has just basically ruined her own chances of getting herself back on her feet. I told her that if she got serious about helping herself, she could call me and we'd chat. Otherwise there wasn't anything I could do at this point. I stayed firm despite her drunken babble and hung up the phone. Only to get all teary with Steve and wonder if I'd done the right thing. Steve reasoned that I've got three children, study and other things that need my attention and enrgy and it wasn't my place to step in with this woman. I can rid myself of guilt when I think about how she doesn't want to help herself, so I literally would have to do everything for her, only for her to fall back flat on her face - probably literally. I do think of her periodically throughout the day and hope she's making a real effort to get back on track. In other news, Steve lost his hearing in one ear. I just kept growing more and more concerned about him. He is a raving hyprocondriac and moans at the slightest thing. But when he's really ill and stressed, he doesn't say anything. I had noticed he was loosing weight and he looked so pale. He's got a scan on Thursday, but I'm pleased to say that so far, tests have come back indicating a non-serious and easily treatable infection. He also got his ear syringed and happily returned home telling me he could hear again. Also, work stresses have calmed down, he's had some good telephone conferences with the UK company, whereas just a week ago, he wanted to discuss plans for losing that income. With the economy the way it is, nothing is certain, but at least its better then he was starting to fear. I have also found out that I have passed one my exam's, thus I have completed that paper and acquired my credits. It was the politics one, which I dreaded most. Thank god I did it! There's hope in the old gal yet! I'm still waiting on my other paper, which I should receive in the next few days. Egg is pretty much sleeping through the night now. Wonderful! At worst she wakes up at 1am, then again at 5am. Otherwise its just one wake at 5am now. Its doable! I'm really not in the Christmas spirit I must say. I am lost in the stress of buying presents for people and I hate that its gotten like that. Its become such a pain when it should be about the thought, etc. I have decided I want to go away for xmas. I would like to enjoy the holiday aspect of it. Egg's passport still isn't back, so I guess it'll be an NZ holiday - grrroan! |