| The last couple of weeks have passed in somewhat of a blur. I've been insanely busy, those iron tablets I have to take have really aided me in getting everything done without falling alseep at the wheel! I'm amazed at the difference. Moons birthday was a great success, she seemed really happy with all her pressies. My parents called in the morning and tried to edge the conversation to them making arrangements to head here when the baby's born, but knowing how bloody awful they were after Pip was born, I can't bear the thought of all that again! I would rather they wait until we're all settled into a new routine. Moons has taken loads of photos with her new camera and to our amazement she's a bloody good little photographer! The new Nanny has also arrived. She's nothing like the other one, not just that she doesn't steal! But she's not the same larger than life type of character, she doesn't ooze the same warmth - she's very much a contrast. She does talk a lot, kind of rambles about fairly mundane things, quite random. She adores her family and talks them all the time. I guess it makes a change of excited chatter about muderers and pointing at the news on the telly with exclaimations of 'I know him!' She's not terribly tidy, but I realise that these are the sort of things that will come in time. I try to talk to her about her feelings on this job and like to get a sort of evaluation at the end of the day, I want her to know I'm here to listen and to support her, but she gets very dismissive and barks one word answers at me. I'm not sure how else I can approach it. She seems really comfortable with Steve though, so maybe she's the sort of girl that doesn't get on with women too well. I'm struggling to read her, I thought when i interviewed her she was just really nervous and maybe she still is. I just made a cup of tea and tried to make polite conversation, but she talked over me about carseats. And yet, on the other hand, we got some pizzas in last night and tried to make a warm, relaxed environment, she seemed to respond well, but her conversations were so random, its like she'll say whats in her mind, no more, no less. The girls seem a bit unsure as well. This morning I rushed downstairs because Moons was screaming and crying, I thought she'd fallen down the stairs or something. She sobbed that the Nanny had taken her drink away, It was really unusual for her be so inconsolable, I asked the Nanny what had happened as casually as I could so she didn't feel like I was accusing her, but she just repeated, I took her drink away. I couldn't work out what had happened, and the Nanny didn't want to elaborate on anything, I didn't want to keep on in front of the girls, so I just soothed Moons and then changed the subjects to drawing. I've been trying to get on with coursework, but occasionally I hear Moons getting upset. She can get overtired sometimes, but I'm feeling a bit uncomfortable. I think the Nanny is really 'professional' but when you think of a Nanny you imagine more of a warm sort, as opposed to a school teacher. Pip is being very quiet. When we had the psycho Nanny, there was always laughter in the house ,singing and music. I guess we'll just see what evolves over time. I've been in and out of the uni for various seminars. I've been up and down with this course. Sometimes incredibly motivated and excited, sometimes doubting my capabilities. Politics is the best, I've just finished my first assignment, two more to go. The lecturer is awesome, really funny and interesting ,very passionate. He updates his online section daily and keeps us all informed and is clearly available. The paper about the rich world and the third world is a little more painful. It seems to be much more economical based, so there are terminologies used that I've never heard before. I'll be glad when Steve gets home to discuss this with me. He'll probably really enjoy it. I got my infringement from that idiot cop, only three weeks later! Its the most badly written notice I've ever seen, incorrect dates, poor spelling and lots of scribbling out. I've written my contestment about the notice and photocopied the infringement to show how badly written it is. And this guy is in training for the Armed Defenders Squad? Lets hope his aim is better! I also saw the physiotherapist, she was awesome. Really friendly and she's invited me to the hydro pool on Friday mornings. Apparantly its really warm and I get to float around the listen to music! Sounds like heaven to me! I can't wait for my first session. I also saw the OB. The baby is fine, very low down which is adding to my pain and constant toilet trips! I sought reassurance that if I start to experience ongoing contractions like I did with Pip, but don't go into full blown labour, she'll induce me. She said she would. What a relief. With Pip, contractions started at 36 weeks, I was dilating, but very slowly. Two OBs tried to induce labour, but failed, so I hit 42 weeks with broken waters and still not in full blown labour. I was really anxious, I was insanely tired from the constant pain and panicky that she would never come out. I ended up going into labour on the day I had pushed for an induction, only for her to arrive within half an hour! God, I can hear the girls getting upset again ,best go and help out.... |