| I have been growing increasingly sick of the old suburu in the garage. It quickly became one of those 'to do' items that we'd never actually do. Although it costs nothing to repeatedly inform the Land Transport Safety Authority that its off the road, over time the WOF (warrant of fitness, MOT equivalent) has expired. God only knows what it'd need done to be considered roadworthy again. I lost the key, the only key, so we'd be looking at $150 for someone to come and remove the lock mechanism and magic us up a new key. Advertising it of course would incur a cost. Steve has kept on, 'but we'll get it sorted out' and I keep demanding a date and time, to no avail. So I found a company that tow cars of any age and state away to sell for parts. Today a very nice tattooed man came and did just that! Only he gave me $100 in the process. I couldn't believe, they'd paid me for the hunk of junk! Our garage looks so spacious! Although its a double garage a lot of space has been used for the outdoor furniture, BBQ, firewood, etc, so there was no room for Steve's car as well. The fact that its sitting outside is causing me more annoyance then him! We're so close to the sea, that every morning there is a film of salt on our cars. Mine is lost beneath it all! The damage it must be doing to Steve's is inconceivable to me! Now its winter, it'll be lavishing in even worse conditions. It can finally sit safe and snug in the garage. I shot down to the local VTNZ centre with my number plates in hand to deregister the car once and for all. I also visited Studylink to show my ID and hand in paperwork to get my student loan. I also went to the university to hand over the enrolment forms and ID. It was surreal to be walking through the uni. I am finally at a stage where I can live one of my goals and complete my degree. Now I have to wait for all my paperwork to be processed. One step closer! Its very exciting! When I used to work full time (before kids), I'd meet Mother's working part time doing some admin work. It all seemed so mundane, but they'd say to me that it was about doing something for THEM. They enjoyed the peace and the feeling they got. I never understood that. Now I know exactly what they meant. Pip has accompanied me everywhere. Every doctors appt, every urine test, shoppping, even my interview for goddssake! I love her to bits of course I do, but my days are planned either around her naps or when she's least likely to be tired and grouchy. I can change nappies at the speed of light in any space and any lighting conditions. Nothing is sacred. I can't eat before them, sleep before them, leave anything out in easy reach. If I'm running late I'm screwed because getting the girls ready takes for ever and sometimes I have to debate whether adding on more time to get a toy is worse than listening to screams all the way to school or wherever. Today has added to my slightly claustrophobic feeling because Steve has informed me he's off to Auckland for the night for work. He'll stay in a nice paid for hotel room, with a nice paid for meal, INCLUDING alcoholic drinks at the bar AND he'll be driving around in his nice paid for rental. Although its just a night, it'll make the girls anxious and once again it'll be me and them with no support. Not that to be honest Steve being here makes that much difference. I don't mean that in a horrible way! Its just that the washing, making the bed, keeping the calm in the house is well and truly my role. Although to be fair, on Mothers Day (Sunday 11 May), I did get some nap time!! Admittedly I didn't sleep the whole time, it was just so nice to be horizontel and on my own! Yep, that was my gift. Oh and some flowers which were really nice considering they were no doubt the last ones in the shop/petrol station! This degree course will actually be something for me. Something outside of the workings of our home and that doesn't include anyone else. Most of the papers aren't offered locally, there are options to attend courses in Palmerston North, which Steve rather stupidly suggested we find a one bed place to rent, so I can head there (its 3 hours) and stay over when I need to. YES PLEASE!!! Errm, see you in 4 years!! The only reason I would rather do the drive is because I know exactly what sort of mess the house will be, Steve and the girls will wear the same clothes every day for months and he'll not be able to find anything - least of all the washing powder! So yes, today saw me getting on with tasks that I needed to do as soon as possible to feel one step closer to doing something constructive with my time! |