Am I any closer to my goals?  A little I guess.  Last night I had a bit fat pregnancy melt down!  I cried about how useless I felt and how I felt so restricted, I cried because I need to get Pip into creche for a few hours a week because she desperately needs some exposure to her own peers, and I cried because I felt guilty.  I cried because I want a holiday and I cried because long drives and flights and ferries are too hard and too uncomfortable.  Grrroan!  On the plus sides, I received a letter about my student loan, or so I thought.  It was a 'you have been declined' letter on the basis of me not being a permanent resident for 24 months.  I was bitterly disappointed, because although possible I thought it might make things financially a little easier what with a third child and all.  I didn't realise though until talking with Steve that you pay per paper, not for the whole thing straight up!  Silly me!  Also, when I called the agency to give them my speech on how a resident is a resident regardless of time I discovered that the rejection was not for the loan but for subsidies paid by the government for things like rent and childcare, etc when one parent is studying.  Phew!  I knew I wouldn't qualify for that, so who cares?!  I felt reassured that my loan was still a possibility, and study in July may soon become a reality.  I also met with this woman from the agency about a live in for the girls.  The woman was fanbloodytasic, very warm and professional.  The company has excellent procedures and she provided for me a CV, cover letter and pictures of a girl who had seen our family information and was very keen to work and live with us.  This girl seems on paper the perfect Mary Poppins, only younger!  She's from good stock, she has a wealth of experience and seems very warm and genuine.  She's Hungarian, living in Austria and ready to fly out at a moment;s notice for a job offer.  I'm waiting anxiously to hear back from the representative in Europe to see when we can get the ball rolling.  I'm really excited about her arrival.  The girls would greatly benefit and I would be keen to have some time out, as I know they would!  I then met with a woman who runs the voluntary service here in Welly.  She was very nice and we hit it off straight away.  She was eager to get me on board BUT had some reservations about the pregnancy.  I agreed, I feel the same.  With good management I think its possible, but its down to whether the higher powers that be allow it.  I don't think working part time is going to happen.  I'm disappointed not to have heard from my contact in Wellington.  I have also made contact with another immigration agency, this one based in Canada and seemngly well respected, I was able to get a recommendation from someone on the BE website.  We've got the points and his fees aren't too bad either, so it looks like the process will be begin very shortly.  Fingers crossed!  Roll on end of June when I know where I'm at!