| Steve has left for Invercargill today. Although I would love to be in the SI, I'm not envious of him being there! There is still this new job on the table, but now he's considering working for the two companies - both think it will work but there are a lot of compliance issues that need to be addressed. Furthermore, the company here are merging with another company. Its complicated and tricky, but Steve has got his heart set on ensuring us as much security as possible and I'll just stand by and watch. Its all very complicated for my little brain! I'm still struggling with morning sickness and tiredness, but on the plus front I just bought some maternity clothes! And I wasn't as huge as I was starting to think I looked! I do look like crap though! So, home alone tonight. Usually I'd take a long soak in a hot bath and take up a bottle of red with me as well as some choccy! But they're all pretty much on the list of things I'm not allowed to do. Grrroan! The weather is miserable, its dull and raining - but it reminds me of home, so I like it! Speaking of home, I'm still avoiding telling my parents that they're going to be grandparents again. Negatives that I can't contend with at the moment. They're very much into 2 children family units, not too mention they'll moan that I didn't lose the weight from the second baby! Tomorrow I have the NT scan to see if I'm going to have a baby with downs syndrome or spina bifida. Steve was born with spina bifida, so there is always a chance. He's pretty much perfect, so I won't be bothered if there was a problem. Well, not bothered, I mean I won't be gutted. Fortunately Steve and I discussed how we feel about things back when I first got pregnant with #1, and neither of us would even contemplate a termination on the basis of a disabled child. When I was speaking to a friend recently, she said if she was pregnant and the baby had downs, she wouldn't hesitate to terminate. I think that's sad that someone feels they have the right to dictate whom should and shouldn't be born. I'm hitting the point now of having a healthy pregnancy. 13 weeks means my chances of miscarriage have dropped dramatically. Having two healthy children has upped the chances of having a healthy baby. So many stats! I will be able to relax more after tomorrow's scan, I just want to hear a little heartbeat. I've been so achey and my back has been killing me, it makes me so anxious. I couldn't bear a loss. Little Moons was off school the other day for a migraine. Its been a while since she had one of those. She slept most of the day, wasn't sick, but didn't eat either. I hope it was just a one-off. Pip hardly sleeps anymore! She's up a lot during the night, we just leave her to it! And she is resisting her naps. I can't imagine how its going to be with three! Eek! |