I've got this really weird feeling in my tummy.  Its the same as I used to have before school on a sunday evening, knowing I'd not completed my homework for the morning.  A sense of dread, and not knowing.  Although I am quite excited in a way.  I played with the girls' all day and when they settled for bed, I got quite weepy.  Most parents' have to work, we're no exception.  Its only temporary, but god, I'm going to miss the girls' especially Pip.  We've sorted our hours quite well, so when Steve starts working the city, he'll leave much later in the morning, that way he can drop them off later, I can come home earlier, and they'll have more time with us.  Weekends will have to be extra special. 

I can't believe I'm going to be with other adults all day, have adult reponsibilities and not change one dirty nappy all day!  I'm really anxious about my new challenges though, I'm so out of touch.  I worry that everyone will look at me and know I'm not really supposed to be part of their world.  I worry what will happen at lunch time?!  I'll have no lunch friends! 

I spent all weekend buying office clothes and new shoes!  At least I can pretend to look the part. 

Don't think I'll sleep much tonight!