This entry comes with a public warning, don't read if you don't like deep and sentimental entries.
Before we get to the nitty gritty of the above comment I've made I want to tell you all what I thought of "Perogies" the Ukrainian Food I was telling you about.
Perogies
The ones we brought were Cheddar Bacon, I boiled a pan of hot water then turned it to a gentle simmer for five minutes as they were frozen not fresh. I didn't personally like the look of eating them like that so I heated up some butter in a frying pan with some pepper and just browned them off. We had them with an Italian Sausage and good old Sauerkraut. They were great, nice alternative to potatoes.
A great programme on the Box
I watched this great programme on City TV last night called 13 Fear or not. It was a reality tv programme where 13 young people are scared to death for the chance to win $666,666. They had a challenge to do and the last pair were the pair to do the final challenge, where one goes home. They had to be buried alive.  The challenge was to get out of the coffin they were put in. It turns out there was a trap door by their legs and one of the poor girls found it. Neil couldn't believe what I was watching he thought it was mad.
Here comes the deep stuff, its your last warning to go.
I was led in bed last night with allsorts of stuff going round in my head. I just couldn't get to sleep. I was thinking about "that" job and wondering if I don't get a phone call today should I go back in. I know the Canadians are very slow at doing stuff, nothing is rushed. I also know that the Canadians like you to follow stuff up, to show your interested.
I finally got to sleep and this is now a whole new story. I had a horrible set of dreams, before I went to sleep last night I was looking at the BBC website at the "extreme" cold weather. There were pictures of the frozen sea and ponds. I'm not sure if this was why I was dreaming about icebergs in the sea while I was on a small boat with Neil, Harvey and my old family dog Bruno that past away about 5 years ago now. This boat kept smacking into these icebergs and I was so scared. There was another dream where I was driving in our car, just me and Neil, we went over a bridge that was very icy then the car lost control and started to skid then headed striaght for this icy lake. All of a sudden I woke up and I bolted upright in a state of panic. I mean what the hell was all that about!
So as I was getting ready this morning I started thinking. (Doing a lot of that just recently, god I need a job). Anyway I was thinking I am going to go back into that office and ask if anyone has looked at my resume. The position didn't have a deadline for applications like in the UK nor did they say when they would be likely to phone me. So I need to look interested, I have to go in, the job requires a confident, motivated person.
I made a little wish this morning I said "Please, please please let me get this job, I really want it and I know I would be really good at it, just let the phone ring today"
To be honest I am living in my bubble at the moment. I never ever thought that we would make it to Edmonton. Not in my wildest dreams, but we got here. So if we got here through my will and determination I can get the job I really want, I will take the leap of faith and go for it. I know I would be good at the job its proving my worth.
I went to an NLP class a while back ago and we were asked to choice a metaphor for what you think you were. I picked a Steam Train to best describe the personality I have. I stay on track, full steam ahead, try not to go back but only if I'm forced to, and stop at certain stages in my life (ie stations). Everytime I feel that life is holding me back or I need a bit of a push I think of my Steam Train. Now you know what the picture at the top is about.
So if I don't get the call today I am going to get into my metaphor and head on to that Personal Office.
Another thing I have now learnt, when I was in England was saying to myself, I'll just get any job but when you get here you think "No, why should I" I came here for a better life for both my husband and myself. Also when your in the hotel your hoping and wishng to get that appartment you really want, then it moves onto something else and something else. Maybe its human nature to just keep wanting, I don't mean money items I mean wanting to have better lives and to be "perfect".
I told you all it was deep!
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