I think I worried myself sick!
Firstly I would like to say that I am not writing this for any sympathy at all if anything I am writing this for my own future reference that worrying about stuff, be it anything, gets you nowhere.
Why is it that I always worry about things that I can't control? Is it fustration, maybe. I got myself so worked up on Monday that even other BE posters noticed that I was acting different. Isn't it strange that you can write differenly if you are having an off day or even read things differently.
I worried about everything, the house issue, Neil's new job in Canada, Neil's current job in England, my dog it all seemed to get on top of me. I listed all the what if's and surposes, to be honest I worried myself so much that by Monday evening I felt, well, really not myself. In fact quite depressed.
On Tuesday I couldn't even pull myself out of bed, my body ached like when you have the flu. I was that ill I couldn't even manage a spell on BE. (I must have been ill). Today I still feel quite ill, sore throat that is so terribly sore, (I can't drink my tea, because it hurts) runny nose, aches and pains, I can't even bare to lie in the bath or even sit in one place for a long time. Last night was spent on the couch because it was unfair of me to keep Neil awake.
I feel quite stupid that I got myself into such a state. I need to realise that things will happen when they happen. I think I lost focus and the emotions got the better of me.
Today I got in touch with the Land registry and they have assure me that they have sent the details to both the landlords address and to next doors address and everything will go ahead on 17th October as planed.
The company that want Neil have assured me not to worry about things as this sort of set back happens all the time and there is really no pressure from there part.
The issues regarding the dog we just need to take everything as it comes.
Have I learnt my lesson about not worrying too much about things, well I hope so! I have really scared myself this time and I find it quite incredible that my body completely took hold of the situation and said STOP! I am a Drama Queen and I don't think I can change that but I need to re-evaluate wheather a situation really needs to be blown out of all proportion or not. I also need to not think of the what if's and handle situations when or if they actually happen.
This all seems like therapy, sorry if I've bored anyone with my bloody sob story but its kind of helped me.  | 